heart to speak

moved

2009-04-24T04:09:00.003-05:00

decided to move to wordpress sbb dah tired of blogspot yang tak semenarik wordpress...hihi

nih link baru: http://rinduperhiasanku.wordpress.com/

janganlaa tak bukak eh...lpas nih dah rajen update...betooll

i can see the finish line

2009-04-22T14:56:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum....

Here is my schedule for the very last final of my undergraduate life **woooot wooooot**

1. Thursday, 4/23/09, 9.00 am - BME 258: Imaging

2. Saturday, 4/25/09, 12.00 pm - ARA 220B: Arab 2

3. Monday, 4/27/09, 2.00 pm - EECE 258: Control System

4. Tuesday, 4/28/09, 9.00 am - BME 252: Physio 2

i can see the finish line now..the finish line to one of the race in life...people usually slows down when they see the finish line...so am I at this moment, thus the blogging...haha

but a friend also told me that if you slow down, you might get pass by someone else that is still running...so pengajarannye..selagi tak sampai finish line tuh....lari laju2 jugak lagi....

ok..oleh itu...sayenak pegi sambung lari....sampai hari selasa...=)

** doakanlaa yee kejayaan saye.....**

hope

2009-04-06T02:03:00.004-05:00

Mengungkaikannya memerlukan kekuatan semangat dan kembali berbaik sangka kepada Allah terhadap potensi diri untuk pulih… dari satu peringkat ke satu peringkat.

dedicated to the LOVE of my life!

2009-03-16T02:49:00.007-05:00

for your unconditional love...thank you

i can be fat and you still love me
i can be not as smart and you still love me
i can be not so pretty and you still love me
i can still be malas and you still love me =p

my hope is to just make you smile...

to the BEST mom in the world,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MI!
(aba..ur the best father too..tunggu birthday ye..adik wish)

to the BEST couple in the world,
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

i love the both of you soo much
i'm constantly afraid that i would fail you
and i'm really sorry for each time that i did

p/s: i don't really think that i am gemuk, or tak pandai or tak cantik..tapi saye memang malas

lovey dovey =)

2009-02-10T19:43:00.003-06:00

suke....mood sayang orang....sukee....sukeee sume orang

sebab tengah semangat tengok cite boys before flowers kott....

and and sebab dengar lagu jiwang2 aje..haiihhhh~ =D

tapi takpe..tak kesah...baek sayang orang dari benci orang

i only hate homeworks, exams and senior projectssss....=p

p/s: i have a crush..cemane2???

Overdue Birthday Wishes =|

2009-02-10T19:35:00.003-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

sorry for this overdue birthday wishes....

TO:
ALONG n NABILAH =)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY yang KE -34 and KE-3

I LOVE YOU GUYS ALWAYS and VERY VERY MUCH....=D

*** muahhhhsssss!!!! ***
*** see you guys in 4 months insyaAllah ***

turning 21

2009-02-07T01:34:00.003-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

Thank you Mi and Aba and my brothers and sisters.....thank you so much...no words can describe how lucky I am to have you guys with me....

I'm deeply sorry that I am not as good a daughter and a sister I should be...but I'm trying my best to be one..one that you guys can be proud of in the future (^_^)V

Thank youuuu again for this:

2009-02-07T01:33:00.001-06:00

enuff said....=)

a helping hand

2009-01-11T13:38:00.012-06:00

Assalamualaikum....

“Orang-orang mukmin itu ibarat satu jasad, apabila satu anggota badan sakit, maka seluruh jasad turut merasakan sakit dengan demam dan tidak dapat tidur.” (HR. Muslim)

here are some things we can do to help:

1) Bantuan tenaga dan diri ; Pergilah ke medan di Palestin, jika anda ada cara, kemampuan dan keikhlasan. Sama ada untuk membantu menghantar bantuan kemanusian, perubatan, psikologi atau yang lebih dahsyat dari itu dari segi fizikalnya..

2) Bantuan Harta : Bagi yang tidak mampu pergi ; sumbanglah bantaun kewangan atau pakaian dan lainnya kepada badan yang dipercayai lagi berwibawa di tempat anda. Agar bantuan tersebut boleh sampai kepada rakyat Palestin yang sedang menderita. Cuaca sejuk kini tidak menentu, di UK kami ditimpa cuaca sejuk luar biasa sehingga (negatif 10) atau -10 darjah celcius. Palestin juga berada dalam cuaca sejuk, sekitar di bawah 10 celcius di sebelah malam

3) Bantuan Doa ; Bagi yang tidak mampu memberi kedua-dua bantuan di atas, atau termasuk juga merkea yang mampu, teruskan berdoa untuk keselamatan rakyat Palestin, Iraq dan umat Islam, doakan bala bagi Yahudi, pemimpin Amerika dan rakyatnya yang menyokong, pemimpin Mesir dan sekutunya-sekutu mereka yang membuka jalan dan menyokong serangan pengganas Yahudi ini. Doa anda boleh bacanya sebagai :

A: Qunut Nazilah dalam setiap solat fardhu anda, anda dibenarkan untuk memegang kertas doa semasa qunut tersebut kerana tentunya sukar untuk menghafalnya. Itu tidak membatalkan solat dalam semua mazhab termasuk mazhab Syafie kerana andatidak bergerak besar berturut-turt sebanyak tiga kali. Hanya angkat sekali kertas doa, berhenti sebenar kerana membaca, kemduain terus turun sujud, tiada berturut-turut.

B: Doa semasa sujud dalam setiap solat. Ia lebih maqbul berdasarkan nas yang sohih.

C: Khatib bacalah doa untuk Palestin di hujung khutbah Jumaat.

D: Dan banyak lagi waktu doa maqbul.

4) Solat Hajat ; Bagi mereka yang berpegang kepada bolehnya dilakukan solat hajat sama ada secara individu atau berjemaah. Anda turut boleh meneruskannya.

5) Menyertai Demonstrasi Aman : Sertailah ia dengan aman dan makmurkannya, namun jangan lupa juga memakmurkan masjid di kala Subuh dan waktu-waktu lain.

6) Menulis ; Tulislah di blog, web, forum anda, ruangan akhbar, majalah yahoogroup dan lainnya, buatkanlah kajian ringkas dan permudahkan penyampaian info kepada orang ramai berkenaan kezaliman Yahudi terhadap Palestin dan sekutu-sekutu mereka.

wallahua'lam~

saye dah abis final =)

2008-12-16T12:43:00.002-06:00

Assalamualaikum

alhamdulillah...selesai sudah semester second last kat snih...seronok2 sebab dah lameee tak abes final awal dari orang laen..or rather...rase cam tak pnah jeee abes final awal dari orang len...hihihi..camni rupenye rase abes final awal....tade beza pon...just kadang2 seronok laa kot nk kaco2 orang...hehehe~

doa kan kejayaan anakanda yeee mi aba...cuak and nervous jugak sem nih....^_^

wallahua'lam

p/s: so now...let's P-A-R-T-Y !!

groundhog day

2008-12-11T21:48:00.003-06:00

it's like i'm stuck with the same routine everyday

you wanna change the routine and do something else

but somehow after you try you are still doing the same thing

and that is sooo depressing..

i want something new...something refreshing....i want a CHANGE in my life!

i think i'm just gonna have to put an extra effort into it and work my best for the change laa kan?
may Allah make it easy =)

Eid Mubarak

2008-12-07T15:52:00.003-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

Salaam Aidiladha dari saye untuk semua...

semoga kita menjadi lebih berani dan kuat untuk berkorban menjadi hamba Nya yang lebih baik..insyaAllah...

stop and listen

2008-11-13T00:35:00.006-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

Did we ever realize...mase kite bace setiap satu huruf dan perkataan dan ayat al-Quran itu...setiap satu itu dari ALLAH....tak ubah langsung...memang itu ape yang Allah hantar pada kita...untuk kita ingat padaNYA.....bukan sahaja semasa baca...tetapi untuk dijadikan our way of life..supaya kite lebih ingat padaNYA....

how amazing? setiap makne dan setiap cerita dalam al-Quran itu adalah kata-kata dari Allah sendiri..bukan dalam bahasa oleh mane2 orang....

Allah is always talking to us...kita yang kena cari dan pergi pada DIA....

bile kite rase down dan sedih dengan diri sendiri atas kesilapan kita....
Allah kata " Katakanlah: Hai hamba-hambaKu yang melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri, janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa semuanya. Sesungguhnya Dia lah Yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang" (39:53)

bile kite rase marah dan tak puas hati...
Allah kate "Kalau demikian, bersabarlah dengan sebaik-baiknya...."(12:18)

Allah is always talking to us...we just have to take the moment to listen and follow.....

wallahua'lam~

jalan keluar

2008-11-12T15:51:00.005-06:00

Assalamualaikum..

dah lame juge tidak update...

current status: lapa..lately asek lapa...mengape yee? pelik2..tapi mungkin logic jugak..sebab sehari makan sekali jee?..so selalu laa lapa jadiknyee kan?..huhuhu

plan harini: lepas abes seminar at 5..rush home solat maghrib...pegi rec lari2...pkl 6 lebih balek...makan INDIA..yummm2.....=D...tido mari?...hihihi...around 8 or 9 stat belajar untuk exam jumaat...pukul 1 tido?

oh2..juge kene register class for next semester...rasenye dalam sejarah kot senior amek 17 hrs...tapi...jangan tetipu...sebenarnye sebab amek class Arab yang 5 hrs...sebenarnye hanye perlu 9 hours...hehehe...tapi takpe...tak busy sangat pon kott?...hehe

lagi ape nak cite?...emmm...oh..isu duit JPA macam sudah setel...ape2 pon..alhamdulillah issue has resolve and akan kaye semule...hihihihi ^_^

ok..this entry is sooo tak bagus....ramblings semate...tapi takpe..nak update jugak....

on a totally different note, want to leave you guys ngan something...

Barangsiapa bertakwa kepada Allah, nescaya Dia akan mengadakan baginya jalan keluar. Dan memberi rezeki kepadanya tanpa di sangka-sangka. Dan barangsiapa yang bertawakal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkannya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan yang dikehendakiNya. Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi tiap-tiap sesuatu.

Allah menyediakan jalan keluar tanpa kite menduga...okay..nak focus dalam seminar ;P..later~

People have voted for change

2008-11-04T22:35:00.002-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

Meet the new President of United States of America

this is the new hand that will change the world...hope it is for the better of all of us....

it is a challenging time Obama to start working during time of recession, juggling wars at two countries, Iraq and Afghanistan. Obama has said his first order of presidential business will be to tackle the economy. He has also pledged to withdraw most U.S. combat troops from Iraq within 16 months.

Best of luck to the first black President in America on January 20th 2009!

Malaysia bile lagi nak anjakan paradigma camnih?

off hinting and asking

2008-10-31T00:35:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

a very un-menambahkan ilmu post..just want to write about things...bile tade duit nih...rase nak beli all the things in the world possible....here's the top two

i have this really jahat idea...i want an iPod Touch for my birthday next year..or even better a Macbook Pro....and i was thinking of hinting my abang to get me one...hihihi...but how do i drop the hint kan?...i don't want to be like 'angah ..can you get me an iPod touch for my besday?'..no fun there..the feeling of getting a present cam tade because we asked for it...haiih...i'm too complicated laaa....tapi betul..tak seronok kalau mintak...tapi kene bagi hint so that dia tau ape yang kite nak...get it?.... and surely mi and aba will be reading this post soon...this is just a nakal thought i have tau..nothing serious about wanting it..tapi kalau dapat bagus jugak...haha ^_^
anyway...my birthday is like gejillion years lagi...lambat sangat lagi...so..by that time agaknye i already have other things in mind i wish i had...haha...anyway..this is just one of those silly ramblings i do...later!

best friends

2008-10-30T00:47:00.006-05:00

copy pasted from some website.thought it suited the mood. =D..thanks to all my friends for always being there ^_^

I have a best friend. I like my best friend. But, one day, we had a stupid little fight. That stupid little fight somehow led to a big fight that had cause us to make stupid decision of not being friends with each other anymore. This hurt me so much.
i missed having a friend to talk to about everything.
talking to 10 different people about the same thing won't feel the same as talking to that best friend.
i missed making fun of the best friend.
i missed hanging out with the best friend.
i'm sorry for being a difficult person.
i'm sorry for not being a good best friend.
i'm sorry for every hurt i've done.

but...

i'm also tired of chasing after the best friend
you always said you were someone that treasures friendship
why did you say i threw it away when it was you that turn down my sorry?
shouldn't best friend look past our mistakes and forgive us when we ask for apology?
maybe losing this best friend taught me to be a better best friend to others and also show me that i don't need a best friend who feel satisfied when i'm down and can't look past my mistakes

cabin fever

2008-10-23T10:57:00.005-05:00

Assalamualaikum....

My Fall Break was awesome! Going back to nature was a really great idea and fun! Staying in a cabin for a whole 2 nights was really an experience to remember...lebih2 lagi cabin yang kali nih sangat2 penuh dengan orang and also sangat2 atas bukit ....hehehehe.....

I've been to a cabin before..and that cabin was great too and bigger...but time tuh we didn't have too much time to go explore the nature like this time.....

The new cabin experience brought up more feelings than before..agaknye sebab dulu cam dah penat travel ke tempat laen kott?...hehehe...

anyway...one MUST tell story at this new cabin is that on our very last night dekat cabin tuh...after dah penat jalan2 dekat downtown Gatlinburg and pegi Haunted House...we were surprised by a blackout kat cabin tuh!....dah laa few minutes before tuh dapat mysterious phone calls beberape kali.....haaaa! cuakkan?....alhamdulillah time tuh all the girls were together up stairs cuddling together on the bed..klu tak kan susah klu sorang tengah mandi ke...sorang kat dapo kee....haru!...but me..time tuh tengah berus gigi...naseb bek I had the bathroom door open...klu tak mau nanges jugak kot....hahahaha...but..in the end...it was nothing serious pon...we got the lights back after 10 minutes....and the boys were cool jugak pegi check things kat luar and all...and they were really lucky to have found a rakoon tengah jalan2 dekat luar....agaknye encik rakoon tuh kot yang langgar mane2 wiring sampai blackout...hehehhehe

and on our last day..kitorang pegi jalan2 dekat atas bukit tinggiiiiii redah2 hutan sket and main2 dekat sungai...the air was soooo refreshing and the view was breathtaking! sangaaaaaaaaaaat!
masyaAllah..all praise to Allah....element sangat simpe - air, batu dan pokok.....Allah jadikan sangat indah susunannye sampai kite yang tengok nih rase tenang and fresh....tak tipuuu....
we also prayed there..in the middle of the sungai...on top of some batu2...of course I stayed at the very back and paling ke tepi...nontheless...solat kat tengah sungai .... tak terkata....kene experience sendiri...and one small detail.....saye jatuh dalam air sungai and basah separuh badan...how unbalanced and clumsy can I be kan?....^_^

lastly...bende yang tak so back to the nature - bought a new shoe...happy2 sebab kasut tuh lawa and nmpk kecik...no more McDonald shoes....haha and makan buffet Golden Corral...sedapppp!!!

maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu

2008-10-22T00:57:00.003-05:00

tak penah pon meneliti lirik lagu 6ixth sense nih....

malam nih terase cam nak bace....and you know what?.....nih laa kot satu2 nye lagu yang boleh dikata kan...memang represent part of what I feel at one point in my life...word for word.... sekarang dgr lagu nih...terase sangat goosebump and sayu and sebak....

i'm sorry

**p/s: entry yang agak pelik....tapi terase nak bgtau jugak...sbb tak penah rase camni bile dengar lagu selame nih...hehehe.....and do know....mistakes in the past stay in the past...you have to put effort to make things work out for the better future ^_^

bad friday =(

2008-10-10T16:08:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

I think it is time to update...in time of deep depression and tension and arrrghhhh...geram2...

okay..here are the things that is irritating me at this moment...things I can think of...

1. geram kat sorang nih yang can't do a single thing I ask dia to do...satu je bende ...and satu tuh laa yang tak dapat buat...and dah dua kali okayy....maybe if I'm not in a very depressing mood I'll just let it go, tapi kali nih nak marah jugak...huhuhu

2. tensen dengan senior project punye hal...it's not like I put it up till the very last minute..I work on looking for groups and projects okay...just that..things got a little bit more complicated than I expected....so...end up with having to do a little bit more work...come on...come on...

3. Class Lab yang paling membencikan semester nih...who on earth nak belajar wat Lab Report dengan sangat sangat amat sempurna? Dengan terperincinya lagi mendetailkan cara nak paste graph dalam Words?...huh?..kann?...sangat annoying this class...dengan grading yang sangat lah dan amatlah ketat!...arghh...geram2...kenape kene belajar buat Lab?..kenape kelas nih tak ajar bende yang lebih berfungsi untuk engineer yang bakal grad...seperti...resume ke..cover letter ke...which I think..ramai budak BME rase lebih berguna untuk hidup daripada belajar untuk tulis Lab Report....yang professornye sendiri kate...'this format of writing is just based on what I think should look like'...duhh...insyaAllah ur not going to be my boss...so...takyah aaa suro orang tulis lab report merepek repek...aaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......gerammmnnyeeeeeee T_T

okay...feeling a witte bit better...=|

Eid Mubarak - 1 Syawwal 1429 H

2008-10-01T12:10:00.001-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Di kesempatan ini....saya mahu meminta maaf daripada semua orang yang kenal saye dan saye kenal...kalau terkasar bahasa..atau bermulut celupar...atau tersalah pukul...atau tersalah sakitkan hati dalam apa cara sekalipun...saya sangat sangat sorryy....kalau masih lagi ade yang tak puas hati..boleh aje tego2 saye ^_^

kepada yang saye hutang..(ehem ehem...cik nazirah..ehem ehem...) nanti kite pegi bank same same pastuh saye langsaikan insyaAllaah...and sesiapa lagi yang saye hutang...boleh claim yerr....

selamat makan kenyang2 yee semua...amalan amalan ketika Ramadhan jangan pula kite cicirkan dek kerana nak raya...

Bersengkang mata menyiapkan paper,
Dapat beraya dengan gembire,
Peluang yang ada hendak di gune,
Semoga ampun saya diterime.
(burok benor...maaf2)

Eid Mubarak!

miracle

2008-09-22T18:29:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Terase lama tidak mengupdate...huhu

Allah's miracle come in many different sorts of way and form I'll say...most of the it is there but we don't even see it...the small things...kadang-kadang kita sedih..kita down that things doesn't go the way we plan...or we think we deserve something but we don't get it...or even we don't want it to happen, it still happen to us.....but if we really think about it...Allah's love and mercy is always there for us.

Kalau kite kantoi exam, Allah still give us chance to make it better the next time and learn from the first time. Kalau terbangun lambat nak pegi class, Allah still bagi kita kudrat and kekuatan nak siap laju2 and lari2 pegi class. Kalau kita buat dosa banyak, Allah bagi kita Ramadhan nih dan Lailatul Qadar nih untuk kita mohon ampun dari Nya...See, in every single things, Allah letak jalan keluar dan mercy Dia untuk kita...all we need to do is embrace it and never think Allah does not care or love us..NEVER...Allah is the BEST PLANNER

wallahua'lam~

2008-09-16T00:15:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

I stumble upon these ayats while reciting the al-Qur'an...

And ye shall be sorted out into three classes (7)

Then there will be the Ashabul Maimanah (Companions of the Right Hand), what will be the
companion of the right hand? (8)

And the As habul Mash-amah (Companions of the Left Hand), what will be the companions of
the left hand? (9)

And those foremost in faith is the foremost in the Hereafter (10)

These will be those nearest to Allah (11)

In Garden of Bliss (12)

A number of people from those of old (13)

And a few from those of later times (14)

-al Waqiah-

And my heart sink...only few je ke from later times?...Kalau few...makin tipis laa harapan saye...that is the only thing that come to mind bila bace part nih...bile teruskan lagi bacaan...terase takut..kalau2 tergolong dalam golongan tangan kiri...nauzubillah...

Ya Allah...jadikanlah kami hamba-hambuMu yang terbaik dalam agamanya...terdekat kepada Mu...dan dari Ashabul Maimanah....amiiin~

.rindu.

2008-09-12T14:52:00.003-05:00

I miss home....

I miss times when I can complaint about hard homeworks to my mom

I miss the times when I used to tell my father about mean boys at school or people I dont like

I miss coming home from a very boring and hard day at school

I'm jealous when I see my brother coming home from his final exam and was feeling down and was complaining it to my mom....I wish I was in his place at that time

I'm jealous when my mommy and daddy bising2 to my brother because he did not study for his exam..do his homework..or finish his project.....

I miss my brother too....

I miss the times when he used to kacau my late morning sleep and I'll chase him around the house

I miss it when he says stupid things and I can smack him hard and he won't get mad

I miss just sitting in his room watching him play WoW

I miss lepak2 with mommy and daddy petang2 and malam2 watching cite Indon

I miss them A LOT and I'm glad that I can miss them and feel close to them even though I'm here...and I'm glad that I can still talk to them whenever I feel so.....

month of training and change II

2008-09-09T10:08:00.005-05:00

Assalamualaikum....

short update before gi class...

last 2 nights, imam dekat ICN bagi short tazkirah between tarawih..dia kate perosak hati itu ada 4..he just mentioned 2 of them the other night..kene pegi lagi nih nak tau lagi 2 tuh ape...anyway..the two things that he said were:

1. Tongue - banyak bercakap. mengata. mengumpat. cakap kosong. mengeluh. We need to TRAIN to talk less about unnecassary things

2. Eyes - cuci mata. usha orang. pandangan mata itu adalah panah beracun yang menusuk ke dalam hati. eyes sees, heart fall. mata adalah punca utama yang membawa kepada perkara buruk lain jika tidak di kawal. tidak mengawal mata adalah umpama api membakar ranting kayu, even if tak rosakkan seluruhnya, masih lagi meninggalkan kesan yang buruk pada hati. LEARN to lower our gaze. Allah telah menyatakan dalam Surah An-Nur ayat 31 yang membawa maksud

"Dan katakanlah kepada perempuan-perempuan yang beriman supaya menyekat pandangan mereka (daripada memandang yang haram), dan memelihara kehormatan mereka......."

and that brought me to this gambar...really suitable for us kan in this month....

hear no evil.see no evil.say no evil

wallahua'lam~

month of training and change I

2008-09-08T20:15:00.005-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Ramadhan is a month for training and changes...

Allah made it a month for us to practice doing more good than we used to do

Allah even make everything simpler for us in order to help us train, practice and change....Allah lock all the syaitaan, Allah close the door of Hell and open all the doors to Jannah

With no syaitan to come and kacau2 and pujuk2 us to do bad things..our chances of doing good things are higher..and insyaAllah becomes easier too....We are only left to battle with ourself...nak ke tanak?

'takpelaa..lepas bulan puasa baru buat'..or...'lepas2 ni mesti boleh buat lah..sekarang nih takyah lagi'

Do you really believe that we can change/practice something better after this? Sedangkan waktu syaitan dibelenggu pon tidak terdaya..apatah lagi bila mereka dah bebas merewang2 nanti....

Bulan ini adalah bulan untuk kita biasakan yang betul dan betulkan yang biasa (yang eloklaa ^_^)

Let us all start little by little..you and me ^_^

wallahua'lam

p/s: I believe that it is worth it...and i'll work hard at it..it's not impossible kan?..Allah will help me through it ^_^

candid

2008-09-07T17:34:00.003-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

just wanted to share candid pictures of us seniors....for the real pictures...kene tunggu yer... ^_^

us..the girls

very hot azlan :P

dunno what we were trying to do here...

Quran Flash

2008-09-04T14:51:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Ramadhan kareem~

Quran flash

So..sitting in front of the laptop and too lazy to move and do better stuff? Tape...don't have to go anywhere..but just click this little link...it'll help us tambahkan pahala insyaAllaah.....one page a day is good enough than not reading at all for a day...rugi kan?...especially in this blessed month yang datang setahun sekali...lame tuh setahun kalau nak tunggu next year...tuh pun klu kite sempat kan...so..let start now....

wallahua'lam

Ramadhan Moon (Bulan Ramadhan)

2008-08-28T13:39:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Ramadhan is almost here....masih tak rase macam nak berpuase...tapi I'm anticipating Ramadhan this year..insyaAllaah tahun nih menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan with other Muslims slain sedare2 Vandy yang biase...

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back to school =D

2008-08-26T23:17:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum

Back in Vandy already...school started already....rumah kemas-ed halfway?...one more very big box of baju and after that setelkan dapor jee....setakat nih this is how my bilik looks like...=D

Remembrance of al-Quds (ROQ)

2008-08-21T01:48:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

I don't have much to say because I haven't done anything for them to help them...but just wanted all of us to be reminded of today and that we can still do something about it and not just sit around....

wallahua'lam~

wisdom tooth

2008-08-19T16:52:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum

I've been suffering from gum ache since last week and a few month ago too....so I decided to go and see the dentist *cuak cuak* I was afraid that the ache was caused by me being too lazy to brush my teeth...but2 in my defense...saye berus tauuu gigi...at least once a day..so there shouldn't be a problem with me being a un-hygenic person....huhuhu....but because of the rase saket was too painful too handle i decided to just go and see him and let him see to the problem...

So...yesterday went in to see him and told him about the swallowing .... pastuh he immediately ask for an x-ray to be done on the part yang bengkak...seksa laa rupenye nak x=ray nih...as soon as it was done...he asked from his nurse a SCAPEL...the one word I don't ever wanna hear from a doctor...any doctor...huhuhu.....so it turned out to be a GUM OPERATION..caused by my very very still small WISDOM TOOTH yang still inside my gum but was hitting on my jaw bone....sebab tuh gum saye bengkak...kesiaan gum saye

ok...sekian update pada hari ini~

wassalam

i hate goodbyes

2008-08-18T10:34:00.004-05:00

kenape good bye ade good kat depan dia?..sape boleh jawabkan untuk saye...ape yang good nye dalam saying bye bye? isn't is suppose to be something sad...nape ade good?

i HATE good bye

why do people GO AWAY and LEAVE me ALONE ?

tak sukeeeee

i'm SOO HEART BROKEN.....i hate this feeling...like there is a HOLE in your heart.....something MISSING ?

lagu nih punyer pasal laa buat saye sedih...

p/s: i should be happy that everyone is happy with their own partner...but that also means i will be alone...which make me feel guilty sebab i shouldn't be selfish and rase sedih..but be happy that they are happy..kann???..in times like this i want someone to share EVERYTHING with...i wish time will past faster! >_<

missing...

2008-08-18T09:49:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

I miss everybody..semua orang dah tade..rindu~

notice the slightly red nose and watery eyes?

wallahua'lam~

my wish list

2008-08-11T23:58:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

I'm just plain bored between busy doing things...so decided nak jadi bimbo sekejap...so..here's my kind of wishlist...haha

1. this cute thing..very white saye sukeeee n also bulat...tapi saye dah ade headphone..so takyah bazer...
2. i'm still considering between these two things...sape ade ape2 cadangan or view?..my brother think I should take the PS3...but tak lawa laa design dia..haha...

3. yang ini memang dah lame i crave for...aiyayayaya....kalau pegi website or kedai apple mestiiii usha...haiihhh

4. and last but not least...baju neyh....sukeee sangat design dia because i have the short sleeve version of this baju and sangat selesa and best pakai....tapi mahal sangat laaa kedai nih jual baju nih...sedeyh2....plus saye dah ade banyak baju jugak sebenarnye...nanti mane nak simpan kan Nazirah??..hhehehee.. :D
...okay. tuh je. later~

wassalam

happy birthday abah!

2008-08-06T16:43:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum....

I want to take this opportunity to wish the father that I love sooo much a very happy and blessed Birthday!...

Thank you for EVERYTHING you did for me until today...and years more coming insyaAllaah

I am very proud to have you as my father...

May Allah bless you always and make things easy for the whole family!

I love you Abah!

bb salsabila

2008-08-06T08:23:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum....

okay..it's official...baby dah bername...hehehe...it's Salsabila Zaini

here is her first look

eeee...gerammmmnyeee.......lembut sangatttt tangan dia....masak pon sodap!

wallahua'lam

shhh...it's a secret

2008-08-06T08:04:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Everybody have secrets, no? But there are many types of secrets...secrets you share with some but don't with some, secrets that you don't mind people to know and very2 important secrets that we never want any soul to know about....here are some secrets that I think I can share....hehehe (mencapubb =p)

1. I am secretly afraid that I might be late to my wedding and I won't look good on my wedding day =((

2. I'm very afraid of cicak and lipas...and I don't know sampai biler saye nak takut derang neyh...

3. Saye takut nak dukung baby yang less than 3 months old...saye takut saye terjatuh kan or buat baby tuh nangis....huhuhu

4. Saye malas mandi (nih cam orang boleh tau jer..especially yang rapat ngan saye..haha)

5. Saye takut kawan2 saye tak suke saye

6. I am currently forcing myself untuk makan dua kali sahaja sehari sebab tanak bile balek Vandy nanti orang kate tembam...huhuhu...vain kan sayeee?

7. I'm afraid people will know my deepest and darkest secret >_<

....but...none of our secrets are ever secrets...sebab Allah Maha MENGETAHUI....ya Allah..ighfirly...sesungguhnya Engkau mengetahui apa di dalam hatiku~~ighfirly rabbi~~

welcome to the family...err..adek!

2008-07-30T04:09:00.003-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Sorry for being too quiet for awhile...haha..bak kate orang..mase sebok laa baru orang baru sebok nak update blog...i think it is quite true....hehehe

i am currently busy watching over my two very cute and extremely active(read:nakal) nephew and niece...as i am writing this..i am between running around keja yang kecik tuh..or bergaduh2 ngan si abang yang dah besar tuh....and now derang nak mandi plak..haiihh...sambung sat lagi laa yee~

okay..dah siap!..and know what?..my brother just rang in and told us that the our new family member just arrived...(haven't decided on the name..so saye panggil dia adek..haha...suke2 jee) Alhamdulillah it's a baby girl...born at 6 pm on 30th July...maken ramei leee budak2 July dalam family nih...haihhh

ok...this story is from today plak...because I had to leave the laptop once again....haha..so..last night went to the hospital to see the new girl..sooo cute laa dia....hidung dia macam besar...ke mancung?... she was sleeping mase kitorang sampai tuh...so just took one picture of her...nnt saye boh..skrg tgh malas =P

pagi tadi woke up with having to give those two kids shower...even saye ponn tak mandi pagi **bad habit**...hahaha...and tadi petang dah tergolek2 tido dengan yang adik tuh depan TV...but, as im writing this right now, derang sume dah keluar...pegi amek adik baru buat balek rumah nih....she is on her way here...haha..saye boleh jage baby baru lahir!! suke nyeee~~~ sebab baby baru lahir takleh lari2..so kite tak penat nak keja2...(MUAHAHAHAA)

okay...tuh jer update for now..kepade mereke2 yang asek minta saye update..=p

and no worries..will be updating banyak jugak laaa kot...with all sorts of things on the wedding and also this new bundle of joy yang still tade name...toddles~

wallahua'lam

Tag

2008-07-16T03:31:00.002-05:00

nazirah punyer pasal..saye buat laaa..:D panjang tau..tak larat bace....so takyah bace pon tapeee

RULES:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Name: Ashwaq Zaini Anwar
Sisters: none
Brothers: 3
Shoe size: 8.5
Height: 164 cm (5'5'')
Where do you live: Kajanf
Favourite drinks: Air kosong (lebih sehattt)
Favourite breakfast: Nasi lemak, roti canai, nasi goreng, mee goreng

Have you ever..
Been on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Yup
Fallen asleep in school: Yup
Broken someone’s heart: unfortunately yes..=(
Fell off your chair: Yes. Jatuh dengan meja2 skali..bukan setakat kerusi jee
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : humm...macam pernah
Saved e-mails: Yup..most of the time
What is your room like: comfy...asyek rase nak tidooo jeee
What’s right beside you: my father and a bowl of mee hoon soup yummm
What is the last thing you ate: mee hoon soup
Ever had Chicken pox: Yes
Sore throat: Yes
Stitches: Alhamdulillah no
Do you believe in love at first sight: Crush mungkin..love..NO
Like picnics: Yes yes yes
Who was the last person you danced with: Sorang2? how pathetic
Last made you smile: my chatting partner
You last yelled: dah lame tak menjerit..=D

TODAY DID YOU…

Talk to someone you like: Absolutely
Kissed anyone: Not yet..maybe tonight..
Get sickness : Nope..alhamdulillah
Talked to an ex: No
Miss someone: Yes
Eat: Yes
Best feeling in the world: No
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Taaaaaakk...sebab sumenye tinggal kat Vandy =(
What’s under your bed: Kotak2 barang
Who do you really hate : Government Malaysia sekarang
What time is it now: 4.52 pm (waktu Malaysia)

RANDOM…

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: Yes
Q: Do you have any siblings: Yes
Q: Do you want children : Yes
Q: Do you smile often: Yes
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: not so often
Q: Are your toenails painted: Nope
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Mommy's and Daddy's =D
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: White/purple
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday : Baru lepas jogging (ehem...ehem..budget sehat)
Q: I can’t wait till: my brother's marriage...tapi but also means dah nak dekat balek US..takmo!
Q: When did you cry last: Few weeks ago
Q: Are you a friendly person: Boleh~lah
Q: Do you have any pets: Nope
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: Kat dalam office sorang2 kott
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: Means everything to me

Have you ever crawled through a window?: Penah..duduk lepak atas bumbung rumah..tade keje kan?
Can you handle the truth?: Need some time
Are you too forgiving?: Nope
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Both
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: Dengan bangganye boleh kate..NOBODY..klu tak asyek kantoiii je nanges
How many people can you say you’ve really loved?: SO many
Do you eat healthy?: Yup!...Masakan ibu =D
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: Nope
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yup..baanyak kali..sensitive maa~
How often do you go to a Masjid?: Selalu
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: Tido
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Quiet..penatlaa nak bising2..kadang2 boleyyhh laaa..bile hyper2 tuh
Are you confident? : Yup..kott?

5 things i was doing 10 years ago..

> pegi sekolah, gaduh ngan kawan2, main getah dalam kelas, tengok world cup, main game

5 things to do today..

> siapkan hantaran, makan, tido, bace buku, tengok TV

5 snacks I enjoy..

> Chocolates, chocolates, chocolates, chocolates, chocolates..did i already say chocolates?

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire

> Compete ngan Doland Trump and get more money...jk jk..hehehe..pegi haji umrah,beli kete untuk mak ayah saye...kawen?, beli rumah kat tepi pantai, melancong

5 of my bad habits

> suke tido, suke marah, malas, suke terkejut, degil

5 places I have lived in

> Kajang, Terengganu, Vandy..tak cukup laa 5

5 jobs I’ve had

> Reeving, mak andam??, Student

5 people i tagged
> sape2 rase nak wat =D..saye tak memakse orangnyee...hehehe

An hour of st***dity exposed

2008-07-15T09:22:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum....

I don't have many things to say except for way to gooo DSAI!!! and for Dato' Shabery Chik and all from his kind; do stop debating like Pak Pandir! You guys keep on talking about past mistakes by Anwar and what he did wrong. It was as if saying "You made mistakes before, we can make mistakes too"..use more facts and don't repeat yourself with the same excuse ("Oil problem is a global problem"), I'm really sorry to say this, but you really did made a fool out of yourself tonight. It looked as if when you have no points to use in your debate, or when you are trying to avoid the question you used the same excuse and critic DSAI..and plus...you got most of your facts wrong and why is it the point 'use the money Petronas is GIVING BACK to the government instead of the INVESTMENT made by Petronas as the SUBSIDY' is soo hard to be accepted by you..is it because the government is using the money for personal uses?

Lastly, thank you to the media for giving the chance for the Opposition Party to voice their issue.

Wallahua'lam

walimatul urus

2008-07-14T09:16:00.003-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

haha..i know the title mesti cam berleluase sekarang..well maybe just for me..tapi merata2 blog hopping and bukak frenster..most of them pasal nak berkahwin august nih..so saye pon tak ketinggalan juge nk mengiklankan perkahwinan abang saye insyaAllah august nih...

so check out their wedding website by clicking on the image below...

So..to all my friends who is reading this..you are all very welcome to come...insyaAllah moga dengan majlis ini dapat merapatkan lagi hubungan sesame kite dan mendapat redha Ilahi..Amiin~

wallahua'lam

p/s: lpas nih saye lak in line...bile tapii? ;D

Protes.Sejuta Rakyat: rally turned carnival

2008-07-06T08:48:00.003-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Yes, went to the event today. Arrived there at around 10.20. Talk have started, stalls were already up. So our first stop was to get the 'PROTES' t-shirt. Then, went to take pictures of the suasana and it was surely merry and people were very full of spirit! (at first) Especially the Indians, they were really active and participating..they were cool~ they had banners ready, they berarak...to be honest, they were the only ones showing the attitude of protest against the oil price hike, besides the talk from the leaders.

People were all over the place, some were outside hanging out, some were outside eating and some were shopping at the stalls. It was indeed a very calm surrounding, and was getting too calm and almost nothing special because it was suppose to be a rally to force the government to decrease the oil price! I'm not saying that we should burn down the stadium or attack any public areas, but we should have not been too obedient towards the government and change place to the, may I say, secluded area. There were no people passing by the stadium area that could actually see or hear what we were trying to say and seru everybody to take part in the protest.

I did not stay for the whole event, was already wiped out after Zohor, plus there weren't any interesting activity going on. People were entertained by street musicians and poet and most people were having lunch at the stalls. By the time my brother and I decided to leave for home, there was this one band performing a PUNK song. Soooo very tak sesuai, I know that rock and very metal-ly songs are suitable for showing rebellion and protest, but surely we don't need this kind of things to show our protest, does it even workk? Is the government even listening? And it turned out that the punk band was called off from performing after about 700 Unit Amal people withdraw from the event because they did not agree with the performance. Read more here. Way to go laaa Unit Amal, at least you guys stand up for your principles! And more ketidak best-an berlaku afterwards. I read from Malaysiakini that another band that was performing was behaving inappropriately when the singer was singing while showing off his behind towards the audience and was continuously pulling his underwear(hmmm?? maybe he had the wrong pair on at the wrong time I guess). The sad part was that, this happened around Maghrib time (~7 pm), surely people understand right...time-time Maghrib mane ade orang bergalak2 ..tak kee? And a few unsatisfied viewers decided to take matters into their hands by throwing bottles at the singers and some people tried to chase them off. So, it was kind of disappointing to learn about that incident. Hishamuddin Rais should have done better. The event was said to continue until 12 tonight.

Here is another link of a disappointed party about the event that was suppose to shock and provoke the government. The event was suppose to give an impact on the government, should have shown that WE, the people ARE EFFECTED by government DECISIONS, especially to increase the oil price and NOT making any effort in taking the weight off the people, instead of asking us to CHANGE our lifestlye, how about change the GOVERNMENT for once? But we did not feel that today, there were no vibe, no feeling of "YES, THIS IS WHAT WE WANT!"
Maybe because it was not the peak of the event yet and I did not stayed longer, even the local main stream media have this and this to say (they are not taking this seriously, for them it is just another carnival), it did not give the same impact it did during Bersih, all in all..we could have done better.

wallahua'lam~

p/s: pictures will come

how does Islam view this?

2008-07-03T11:43:00.003-05:00

Assalamualaikum....

I just learned something tonight about the whole sodomy and things alike. I got confused on the whole who's telling the truth and who's lying stuff...it's not that I don't believe in DSAI..but I just don't understand why Saiful Bukhari's family and members still have his back if they know the truth?..Even on his Friendster he said ' Wahai Anwar MUNAFIK!! Yang HAK Pasti Berdiri..Aku CABAR kau lawan jika kau tidak bersalah.. Aku tak takut mati.. Yang BATIL Pasti Jatuh!! PASTI! ALLAHHUAKBAR!!! ' ... how do we choose side? who do we trust?

So..apparently according to Islamic Law, firstly, we can't really say that the claim was true, i.e we cannot go around saying..." aku rase betulla DSAI tuh jahat " or " see..he really did it..just like before" because we don't have any proof to justify our claim..it will become same as memfitnah..that is how I understand it...and the other one is...in order to really convict that someone back doored him...he will have to provide 4 witnesses to make sure that DSAI is not being framed or dishonest, but I don't understand Islamic Law as a whole (my bad) ..tapi setakat yang saye faham hanya sampai di situ saje..I strongly believe there is actually a better explanation on how to properly trial for this sort of crime...someone care to explain?

In my personal opinion, using medical proves such as the medical examination of the 'area', DNA matching and also the analysis of the place of the crime ( but God forbid..no more usung2 tilam to the court...don't they have cotton swab?..I don't mind lending them my Q-tips..and do take pictures..don't go through the whole thing again please)

Sebagai konklusi (rase cam karangan)..I really think that people should take Islamic Law point of view into consideration on handling this matter because...kalau terlepas hukum dunia nih, dekat akhirat tak terlepas, lebih pedih dan lebih azab..mungkin manusia sudah lupe pada Allah..jadi ramai yang berani nak melawan hukum Dia...jom kembali mengingati Allah !

wallahua'lam~

picture time

2008-07-01T11:32:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

tengah rajen untuk mengupdate cause baru jer upload gambar yang dah berminggu2 from camera..you understand it rite?...always jer malas nk masukkan gambar dalam computer but once dah masukkan suke plak .... you know what I'm ranting about kann?..kann?...ke saye sorang jeee macam nih..pemalas?...huhuhu...

Okay...back to my original reason...here are some pictures I think worth sharing....

nih gambar anak burung dua ekor yang telah dilahirkan and buat sarang atas pokok dragon fruit kat rumah saye..so..boleh consider as..pet?jiran?..cute kann?...so comel..tapi takut mak dia datang...ehehhe

nih gambar mase keluar lepak2 ngan kawan mase sekolah dulu...dah 3 tahun tak jumpe mereke...I look short in this pic..hmm..but anyway..we had fun..GOSSIPING..hahaha =p

and here....gambar dengan kawan2 baru..same2 berjuang di US...jumpe jugak kite dekat Malaysia nih...hehehe...sronok2 dapat jumpe anda semua...akak kat US jangan jeles or sedey yeee...nanti insyaAllaah kite jumpe2 lagi camni in the future...;D

the end of the photo sharing..sorry I'm boring you guys with bende remeh in my life...huhu....takde dah lpas nih...tata

wallahua'lam

hantar-an

2008-07-01T11:11:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

This post is to update those yang selalu bukak blog nih and nak tahu saye buat ape...hahaha..I sound very vain..but actually...I just wanted to share with all of you about my progress with the hantaran stuffs...I just hope that my bakal kakak ipar won't open this page or it will spoil the surprise for her...tak funn laa camtuh kann?

So..TADA~....
this is the so-called 'Bunga Mas Kahwin'...not fully finished..but..dah ade rupe laa kann?

nih plak is the dulang where the hantaran will be placed in....but we decided to change the arrangement just after I took this picture..haha..because they said that the flowers was held too close together..and basically tak cukup lawa...hahaha....but now dah siap ngan rupe baru yang cantek..but haven't snap any pictures of it yet...tungguu yeeee nanti I'll put it up..

nih laa setakat yang ade untuk di tunjuk..not muchh....i learned a lot...blaja gune glue gun..kene telitiii giler and kene kreatif...hahah..but most of the time..kene just know how to belasah2 and jadik bentuk yang boleh diterime...so there.

wallahua'lam

Act II

2008-06-30T11:34:00.003-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

If what is happening here in Malaysia was a cheap drama..I can take it, but..knowing that it is the same story all over again...it is unacceptable..Malaysia's politic drama has become old fashion may I say because the same thing had been done before...haiiyaaa...

Here is what the previous 'director' might have say about the situation

1. Aku dah kate daaah dia nih gay tahun 1998 duluu

2. Hang tiru idea aku laaa

3. Ape hal bebal sangat..kan taktik nih dah tak jadik 10 tahun duluuu

Encik Saiful Bukhari...kalau mahu famous and sangat giler to be on the center stage..join AF sudeyyhhh...takyah susah2 nak kate kene masuk ikut back door....you think you can live a better life with more money and fame?

wallahua'lam~

a wedding like no other

2008-06-22T07:42:00.003-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Have been really lazy too update, plus not that many things too story about..hehehe...but now I DO!

My parents and I went to a 3 days 2 nights wedding event at Janda Baik last two weeks. And here is why I think the wedding was a very unique event:

1. The first night we was there, we the girls we presented with belly dancing by the family member of the bride..this is because they are from an Arabic descendant

2. We were served with lambs for the whole 3 days events..yummy for me...=D, they cooked 3 types of lambs recipe for each day :- BBQ, Nasi Arab Kambing and Kambing masak Kuzi

3. The groom is the same age as me and the bride was only 19!..they made me feel OLD

4. The bride's father dance an Arabic dance on the day of the wedding reception on the stage, it was random and not planned out

5. The father of the bride did not wear any sort of baju Melayu for all the events (akad nikah nor the reception)

6. Both father of the bride and groom plan a secret gift for their children by surprising them with a free helicopter ride to see views of Pahang from top and it was a gimmick alright, because it happen during the reception when everybody was eating and then the helly landed.

So..there you have it...anybody want to share their story of any weird weddings?..you are very welcome to do so!

wallahua'lam

against everything

2008-06-11T07:53:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

Everyone around Malaysia is talking about harga minyak naik... even I wanted to talk about harga minyak too initially..tapi macam all have been said je...nanti cam dok ulang story same..so nak cakap pasal another issue that caught my attention and moved me to write about it. It's the issue in Turkey, where the court decided to ban Muslim women from wearing the head scarves because it is said to be AGAINST ANTI-SECULAR even though actually there are about 60% of Muslims women in Turkey that wear them.

Let us take a moment and think about it, why is it when people ask the women to cover up and not wear revealing clothing, they are said to be AGAINST HUMANS RIGHT because they say that it is the person's CHOICE to wear very little clothing or to show parts of their body instead of making them abide to their religion, but then in the situation in Turkey where people CHOOSE to cover up and not want to follow their religion, it is not allowed...totally unfair right?

Why is it when people choose to be in accordance with their religion, other people are against it but when it comes to abandoning the religion, help comes from all direction, isn't kind of the opposite to what Allah have said in Surah Ali Imran verse 104

Translation:

And let there be [arising] from you a nation inviting to [all that is] good, enjoining what is right and forbidding what is wrong, and those will be the successful. (3:104)

wallahua'lam~

what i'm up to?

2008-05-20T02:17:00.005-05:00

Assalamualaikum .... =D

As all of you know...I'm back home in Malaysia already...dah exactly a week I'm back and I think it is time to update...nanti kesian kawan kat Nashville tuh tak tau saye buat ape kat sinih...hehehe (^_^)V

Okay..the flight..overall was okay laa despite going home alone and tak bercakap pon slain dari dengan stewardess nk mintak air and makanan...ahahha....slept a LOT and listen to lagu jugak banyak..especially How To Save A Life....ntah knape..hehehe

okay...done with that part..moving on to ape saye buat kat rumah...emm...jet lag...sket..tak sedasyat last time...huhuhuh....esoknye tuh terus tolong my dad varnish/syelek lantai bilik pengantin...hahaha...semangat toll...skrg bilik tuh dah almost done...^_^ bangge2..hihihi...lawa kan?..shiny2

saye tido bilik mak ayah saye kerane takut tido bilik sorang2...bahaye wooo..so saye punye katil kind of tengah2 bilik..sebab nk dekat dengan kipass...heheheheh....sayang mi aba!..heeeheee....so..nih laa keadaan katil saye yang menyemak tengah2 bilik orang...huhuhu...you can see all my begs and stuff kat tepi tuhh...and on my katil ade laa this loyal laptop and also a magazine that I'm busy belek-ing..eheheh...tengah carik idea nak wat hantaran camner..huhuhuh...

I tried out one design...and it worked out okay laa (sila lihat gambar...=p)....kene increase kan lagi skill..haha...biar kasik lagi cunnn and elegent....hehehe....

i was about to take a picture of my mom's very delicious and yummy ketupat sotong....but being me, I accidentally went to the kitchen and finish the very last ketupat sotong..and lepas abes tuh laaa baru ingat...ya Allah..nak amek camne laa dah telan sume?..emm..so I'll save that ketupat sotong gambar for later..sorry folks! arinih sebok2 susun all my brother's books and library...sebab nk letak more books in there...heheheh ohh one last story before I stop for now...I got a new PHONE...eeeeeeeee...excited and sangat seronok sebab it's soo sleek and lawa.... =D....here it is...it's a Sony Ericsson S500i....okay laa for me...not so techy~, just nice for me...

alrite...adios!

tazkirah pendek arinih: Abu Hurairah r.a katanya:
Aku pernah mendengar Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: Allah s.w.t berfirman: Anak Adam selalu mencaci-maki masa, padahal Akulah masa. Siang dan malam berada di tanganKu

Nombor Hadis Dalam Sahih Muslim [Dalam Bahasa Arab sahaja]: 4165

so..we need to use our time wisely especially dengan summer yang very panjang nih..take care!
wallahua'lam~

i'm back and good bye

2008-05-08T23:02:00.013-05:00

Firstly i just wanna say that i'm really sorry that i haven't been blogging for a while, a LONG while..hehe....what can i say..been busy with school?..haha boleh tak alasan tuh...but betull...i've been really super duper busy...ok enough about school...

tapi atas permintaan nazirah tersayang....saye pon update lah blog..and juge because ade bende nak cite...hehe...it was Senior Farewell Party 2008 last nite...it was the best Farewell Party ever laa kot....eventhough the event was galmor/red carpet..tapi derang still manage to make all of us rase sedih and rase kehilangan .... congrats and thanks to the sophomores for kehebatan derang!

I'm not gonna elaborate on it as good as Q did in his entry, just gonna story2 about how I'm gonna miss them all =(

I haven't spend the most time with all of them, but surely not having them here anymore is NO fun! Experiencing this for the past 2 years before, does not help prepare me for the emotional ride, lebih2 lagi i spent the longest time ngan batch derang nih (3 years u knowww)

the thing that i think will effect most is that..tade dah people yang lagi tua dari kitorang to look for bile2..mase hepi nk share2 news..or especially time sedih2 and ade problem...=(..takleh dah laa nak manje2 ngan kak raihan...ajak gi bubble tea...or pesan-pesan bubble tea...hahaha...nak lari pegi nyorok rumah korang bile rase tensen pon dah takleh kan kak ena?...oh..how much i'm gonna miss that....

one more thing yang best....bile travel mesti laa naik ngan seniors kan..sebab derang lagi terer bawak kete...so..that time laa betul2 boleh bonding...kan cammoe kan?...haha..jadik baik ngn cammoe sebab travel same2....thanks sebab tahan ngn aku mase aku majuk or mase aku tido jugak time ko driving sorang2 and minyak nak abes or even time nak telanggar tiang tu...sorry..skrg aku tak tido dah time travel, well tadelaa tido banyak sangat...huhuhu...

and i think thing that effect budak laki the most is sports laa kot kan..dah tade dah laa senior2 untuk ajak main bola eventho bukannye tak cukup orang untuk bermain...tapi dengan seniors laa kn kite stat2 nak baik and learn a lot from..derang laa yang help give us confidence in us mase main dalam big games...kann?

i'm sure gonna miss seeing seniors dekat fgh or jumpe mane2 tengah jalan dekat lewis or morgan...not being able to terserempak dengan derang nih lagi makes me realize that memang derang dah balek for good....which is sooo tak best

as a last wish....

to Class of 2008,

Selamat Graduate..have a happy and meaningful life after grad...jangan luper kat kitorang
thanks for everything and sorry for everything too
^_^

am truly gonna miss you guys! =(

p/s: i'm going back to Malaysia next Monday..sebab tuh sedihhh...dah tak jumper senior dahh...=(

holding on to each other

2008-03-30T01:48:00.002-05:00

Assalamualaikum..

Just for fun......look at how the cute the siblings are...so together...baiklah kalau kita semua pon macam ni...sukeee

enjoy

wallahua'lam~

Wiihabilitation?

2008-03-25T18:41:00.014-05:00

I suddenly remembered that a friend told me about the wonder Wii had made to patients recovering from illness such as stroke, getting out of surgeries and also combat injuries. Here is the article about how Wii helped these people... and I also remembered my brother telling me that doctors that play games show better skills during surgery or suture (jahit luka)..playing video games somehow increases the doctors reactions and hand skills ( i don't know how far this claim is true, so i searched for it too) andI found about this...a doctor, a laparoscopic surgeon(dia bedah orang by making smallest bukaan as possible) did a survey at the hospital where he worked and here's the result:-

Rosser surveyed 33 surgeons about their video game playing habits. Then he assessed their performance in a training course that tests surgeons on their skill and speed. "We found out that people who had played at least 3 hours a week in the past, they were faster and they also committed fewer errors than the people who did not have any video game experience," he reports. "And the people who were currently playing video games were also better than the ones not currently playing."

Researchers found that

(a) participants who once played video games for more than three hours per week had a 37% reduction in errors when performing laparoscopic surgery and accomplished their surgical task 27% more quickly than their non video-game-playing counterparts;

(b) participants who had played video games experienced a 28% reduction in errors when suturing and accomplished their suturing 24% more quickly;

(d) current video game skill and past video game experience were significantly more indicative of laparoscopic surgical proficiency than years of training or number of laparoscopic cases performed previously.

here is the full story and here is the other one ..

* ade persamaan tak sikit2?*

In my personal opinion..surgeons do function better kalau derang dah biase play games, because most of the surgeries these days (rasenye most laa if not some..hehe) use interface which means masukkan any probe (yang usually nampak mcm wand harry potter tak pon batang2 besi) into the patients body and then the inside of the patient will be dispaly on an LCD, so orang2 yang play video games, unexpectedly trained their brain to match what's on screen to what's at the end of their apparatus...cool kan?...the class i'm taking this semester talks a lot about these kind of stuff and ways to improve the precision and accuracy...suke class nih...cikgu dia sooo baik jugak...okaylaa..nak stop dah...i have to finish my project report for this superb class...but not so great lab work...heh..suke buat tapi tak suke report..boleh tak?

wallahua'lam~

p/s: pengajaran hari ini..mainlah banyak2 video games and console games..kalau kene marah..tunjuk laa blog nih ^_^

shariah law made modern?

2008-03-18T12:31:00.004-05:00

Assalamualaikum...

I was reading about the new formed Malaysian cabonet on Malaysiakini, and I bumped into this letter written by a non-Muslim (I think laaa) about shariah law and is very interesting. And it does have something to do with yesterday's talk. Take this Ayaan!

Some excerpt from the letter

"..Some UK Muslim communities are already resolving family disputes voluntarily with shariah law. Of course, all parties should also have the right of recourse to the jurisdiction of UK courts. However, such rights have to be taught, learned and upheld. Politicising the debate on shariah law and confusing it with extreme criminal punishments which are not agreed with or practiced by most Muslims in the world does not help this process..."

wallahua'lam.

Al-Haq

2008-03-17T22:40:00.007-05:00

Assalamualaikum...(entry nih mungkin diselit dengan sedikit respon yang emosional...berusaha untuk melimitkan opinion yang emosional)

All praise is due to Allah (SWT). We praise Him and seek His assistance. We ask for His forgiveness and take refuge in Him from the evil within ourselves and from the evil of our deeds. He whom Allah (SWT) guides will never be diverted yet whomever He sends astray will never find his way. I bear witness that there is no god but Allah (SWT) alone, He has no
partner, and I bear witness that Muhammad is His servant and messenger.

Today was a great experience for me...takkan merase kot pengalaman macam nih dekat Malaysia..hehe...alhamdulillah untuk pengalaman ini..insyaAllah akan meneguhkan lagi iman yang dah semakin nipis...lebih nipis dari selapis atom...
Today Vanderbilt held a talk bertemakan Middle East meets West..and of course, kalau middle east mestilah Islam pon diheret same ke dalam perbincangan...jadinya...pada harinih..dijemputlaa speaker Ayaan Hirsi Ali, is a Dutch, feminist, writer, and politician. I personally don't understand kenape dia nak jadi west sangat...huhu....

So..she talked..basically what she said were about how kejamnye ajaran Islam, the way she did it was by just mentioning part2 tertentu dari al-Quran atau hadis yang dia guna untuk advantage diri dia memburukkan image Islam (politician...=p) and she also mixes Islam with culture..something she is having problem with I think...kene belajar balek akak nih...hehehe ....antara contoh yang dapat disum upkan from her talk are:

1. Islam does not promote freedom, tak sealiran dengan democracy and is against human rights

2. Orang Islam nih takleh nak berhujah langsung dengan hukum yang telah tetap dalam al-Quran..as if kene follow blindly

3. Women oppression( nih campur2 banyak ngan culture)-arrange marriage (yang she dengan berjayanye escaped from), wife beating by husband kalau disobey him, perempuan kene cover up tapi lelaki takyah, dihalang dari belajar when reach puberty age

4. Hukum shariah yang against human rights - mencuri potong tangan, berzina kene rejam dengan batu dan disebat 100 kali, and she mentioned ada parents yang bunuh anak sendiri sebab found out yang anak mereka nih date lelaki (this is not shariah pon kott??)

* I don't think she knows about Islam deeply, but she only know the things she wanted to know to go against Islam and Muslims*

And my personal response to this:

1. Tak berbaloi nak lawan dia nih balek sebab time soal jawab pon...tak penah nak accept opinion orang yan menyoal..dia hanye tahu menjawab untuk men-defend her opinions...and she talks about critical thinking (huh!)..ade ke dia perli sorang brother Muslim nih for saying that she was attacking the Muslims and Islam (which memang ponn) and she said that she was just giving critical opinion (bleghhh...TAK)

2. Yeah..like Danny said..kite sebagai Muslim datang memang dengan open mind laa sebab nak try faham and see how she thinks of things...well...memang laa ape dia cakap tuh tadelaa salah..they are true..but it's not the whole truth...its part of the truth...itu yang cube saye tekankan disini..saye tak berfikiran sempit mengenai her stand..but it wasn't the WHOLE TRUTH!..itu laa kot yang paling saye tidak berpuas hati...hehe....

3. Banyak laa sangat sebenarnye rase nak tempiaskan balek ape yang Cik Ayaan nih punyer points tadi...and frankly, accusation dia nih tadelaa baru pon..we've heard of this from other people yang tak suke Islam jugak...dah memang tak suke...derang akan bang habis2 laa kan

4. Saya yakin...each one of us (Muslims) yang hadir tadi memang boleh balas and defy balik SEMUA yang dia cakap mengenai Islam...

the truth will remain to be true and someday the truth will come out the open...
yang sedihnye, orang yang memang samar2 ayam pasal Islam memang bersohor laa bersetuju dengan dia...bagi kami Muslims yang ada disitu..panassss telinga betul nak tahan ape dia cakap tuh....tapi sabar....tade daya nak melawan mulut dengan dia...saye risau...saye nih bukannye jenis outspoken..takutlaa kalau bersuara..tersalah translate pulak dek orang putih...takut2 memburukkan image Islam pule...jadi serahkan jer pada saudara Muslims lain yang lebih hebat...hanye yang termampu mase kami di interview oleh people from ORBITZ about our reaction...insyaAllah ape yang dikatakan tadi dapat membenefit readers...and sempat jugak promote IAW (heheh ;D)...moga2 usaha kami tadi tidak sia2 and diberikan ganjaran...kan korangg?...hehe

okay..itu saje entry yang emo kali ini...tapi sukee laa pengalaman macam nih..widen our horizon..alhamdulillah bertambah ilmu moga2..heheheh...tinggalkan la comment yer kalau yang membace entry nih ade di talk tadi atau tahu mengenai saudari speaker itu atau ape2 pendapat pon...=D

wallahua'lam~

**p/s: nih link to short movie dia dengah theo van gogh, Submission

a new dawn, a new beginning

2008-03-11T19:43:00.002-05:00

I strongly believe that every good thing that is bound to happen starts with a very significant event...it does not happen macam tuh jee.....mesti always ade something yang betul2 jadi yang akan trigger it to happen...

Well, specifically, I'm talking about PRU 12 yang baru lepas kat Malaysia...it was a real shocker indeed...good and bad (depends on which side you're on)...and a lot had been said and analyzed. My father sent me these interesting articles about the after math of Malaysia's election. You can read them here, here, and here. They are all from The Star. Even here, away from Malaysia and we are not yet affected by what is happening in Malaysia, we still discuss about it (boleh nak discuss kat sinih) ...how did it happen?...Power of Allah indeed, even things that is impossible in our mind is possible by Allah's power...Mungkin ada pihak rasa..ini balasan Allah pada yang tidak memuliakan agamaNya...tapi pada masa yang sama...jangan lupa, kemenangan yang Allah kurniakan ini boleh juga menjadi ujian kepada yang menang...contoh dah ade, yang menang kene tuduh itu ini, kerajaan baru di beri gambaran buruk walau baru sehari terbentuk....la haula wa la quwwata illa billah ilaliyyilazim....semoga kebenaran terpelihara....amiin...

wallahua'lam~

I Love You, MI ABA !

2008-03-07T13:08:00.005-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

This is a very special entry. I want to wish my ummi
`

HAPPY 60th BIRTHDAY !
May Allah's blessing be with you always
Thank you very very much for EVERYTHING yang Mi ajar, buat untuk adik
Adik rinduuu sangat and saaayang sangat dekat Mi
tunggu adik balek eyh..nanti dapat hadiah birthday..hehehe =D

and also a very special wish for both Mi and Aba

HAPPY 34th ANNIVERSARY !!
I love you both sooo very much
I'm really thankful for EVERYTHING yang Mi Aba did for me
I'll try my best to be the best daughter I can
and I can't wait to hug and kiss both of you soon! insyaAllah =)

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU !

Cuti Musim Bunga

2008-02-28T12:44:00.005-06:00

Assalamualaikum.... rase macam dah lame tak update..seminggu...huhuhu..been really busy this week...same oo same oo...but today dah last day...esok saye dah start Spring Break *^_^V yeayness* my very kind teachers have decided to cancel tomorrow's class sebab derang nak bagi time to pack untuk balek..as for me....i'm packing myself in my comforter laa kot =D..very comfortable...hehehe... well...harinih sangat mengantok..was planning to play game satu hari nih...but too tired jer..tapi kalau tido sekarang nanti rase rugi sebab tak main game...tamak gile kan?...sume pon nak...boleh tak main game dalam tido?..that would be great!...haha....okay2 merepek....huhu...

before ending my entry, I wanna wish a friend of mine, Happy 21st Birthday! (dah lepas dah snarnye ari Selase arituh..tapi tapelaa kan?)....may Allah bless you and stay close to Him always!

*tazkirah arinih*
kalimah yang Allah paling suka hambaNya tuturkan... Subhanallah Alhamdulillah Allahuakbar senang and pendek jer....ade mase duduk-duduk saje Spring Break nih...zikir2laa...Allah sangat suka bila hamba Dia ingat pada Dia semase senang dan juga susah =D

wallahua'lam

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.....

2008-02-21T01:26:00.003-06:00

On the authority of Anas, who said: I heard the messenger of Allah say:

Allah the Almighty has said: "O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great as its."

related by Al-Tirmithi, who said that it was a good and sound Hadith.

nothing more to add to this expect that Allah memang lah yang Maha Pemurah dan Maha Pengampun...Subhanallah alhamdulillah Allahu akbar

wallahua'lam~

a not so good day

2008-02-19T16:12:00.004-06:00

well..make that week..hari isnin lagi dah rase down?..how do i survive this week?...uwaaa...rase nak nanges...tapi tade mase untuk stop and nangis pon....huhuhu....abes exam homework...abes homework...homework lagi....pastuh...exam balek....aiyaaa...so sad laa macam nih...=( =( =( =( =(
dahlaa baru bulan 2....klu dah bulan 4 rase camnih...tape lagi kot..huhuhu..dah tak reti nak motivate diri dah.....

biler nak pandai neyyhh?usahe masih tak cukup ker?...malas sangat ke diri nih?(memang2)...ke tak berkat hidup nih? (na'uzubillah)...huhuhu....tamau laa hidup yang macam nih....

tape2...tanak down lame2...sebab orang beriman tak putus asa...and saye nak jadi orang beriman yang kuat...

Who have believed and whose hearts have rest in the remembrance of Allah. Verily in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest! (13:28)

wallahua'lam~

Ada Apa dengan February 14?

2008-02-14T16:26:00.007-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

Hari nih February 14th...ehheh...semua tau ape orang sambut harinih kan?...buat aper kite nak sambut jugak? ...pelik kan...even though I know some people yang akan jawab balek ape yang saye cakap nih by saying saje2...bukannye bawak harm aper2....well...it's true...tapi...aqidah wise?...effectnye saye sendiri tak pasti...wallahua'lam...mungkin yang lebih arif tau laa hukumnya, dan yang pasti dah banyak pon article2 or nasihat yang orang bagi pasal perayaan nih...sume depends on kita nak accept or tolak..kann? ^_^ If you are single and rase sedih sebab tade orang nk celebrate dengan..don't be sad...be happy instead..you have nothing to loose ..betul...jimat duit sebab takyah belanjer orang lain, tade beli2 bunga or beli coklat...^_^

Compare to meraikan kematian 'martyr' Christian (sedangkan Maulidur Rasul itu sendiri bid'ah) dengan cara Rasulullah (pbuh) ... sape kita nak ikut eyh? Everything dah depan mata...

Say: ‘If you do love Allah follow me, Allah will love you and forgive your sins for Allah is Oft-Forgiving Most Merciful.

wallahua'lam~

PRU 12 Malaysia ..hummm?

2008-02-13T18:29:00.004-06:00

So the Prime Minister of Malaysia has finally disperse the Parliament of Malaysia, no shock there because the heat of the election boleh dirase oleh kami yang jauh di benua asing nih pon =) ...

Masa depan negara semuanya ditangan rakyat, rakyat sendiri yang pilih nak kehidupan yang bagaimana...sayang saye berada jauh, dan sayang jugak umur pon tak cukup lagi...huhu~ and I guess it is too early jugak to wish people in Malaysia selamat mengundi memandangkan tarikh penamaan calon and tarikh pilihan raya pon belom umum lagi...but honestly, I'm really excited and looking forward for the election ^_^v...hehe...what kind of plan do they have in store for us this time...moga2 semua bersedia...Allaahu ma'anaa!

Back to my school life here..minggu nih...even though ade 2 exam, satu yang baru lepas tadi and one more coming this Friday, tak sibuk sangat rasenye...Alhamdulillah...and two weeks from Friday SPRING BREAK is here...oh..lupee...harinih snow...but sikit sangat..hehe...tapi takpelaa...nampka putih sikit Vandy pagi tadi...sukee ^_^..heeeheee...excited macam freshmen pulak!.....well...back to Spring Break story, rase nak bejalan dekat2 je kali nih...bekunjung ke rumah kawan..asyik dia aje turun kesinih..teringin jugak naik tempat dia...kann Mui kan?...boleyh ehh?...Jiha..sabar dulu eyh...kite blaja abis2..nanti cuti kite lepak puas2...hehehe...

I'll leave this entry with ayat 46 of Surah Al-Hajj...

Have they not travelled through the land, and have they hearts wherewith to understand and ears wherewith to hear? Verily, it is not the eyes that grow blind, but it is the hearts which are in the breasts that grow blind.

wallahua'lam

p/s: Nazirah laa nih...heheh..okay update terbaru..penamaan calon is on February 24th and the election will be on March 8th. tq...itusajapesananpenaja....

Easiness in Islam

2008-02-09T17:53:00.000-06:00

Narrated Abu Huraira: The Prophet said, "Religion is very easy and whoever overburdens himself in his religion will not be able to continue in that way. So you should not be extremists, but try to be near to perfection and receive the good tidings that you will be rewarded; and gain strength by worshipping in the mornings, the nights." (See Fath-ul-Bari, Page 102, Vol 1)
Sahih Bukhari, Volume 1, Book 2, Number 38

Based on the hadeeth above, I would like to say that it is really true...why burden ourselves over the limit if it will cause us to fall even harder later? Buat setakat yang kita termampu...but at the same time...janganlaa sehingga mengambil jalan mudah kot...masih ingat lagi...masa sekolah rendah dulu..baru tau perkara2 sunat dalam solat...so saye cut seshort2 yang boleh solat tuh...especially surah bacaan...memang tak penah nak buat....hehehe...and jemaah pon kalau boleh elak..saye elak....hihi..until satu hari tu...ummi saye came up to me lepas saye escape dari jemaah ngan dia...huhuhu...she said to me ... kenape kita kene bakhil (kedekut) dengan Allah...spend masa untuk bende lain senang2 je...tapi bila datang nak buat ibadah..kita carik short cut....antara lain begitu laa maksud ape yang ummi saye sampai kan pada saye...Alhamdulillah ever since that....saye memang tak cut short dah solat...kecuali time2 kecemasan...terima kasih mi!

Then it brought me to thinking...banyak jugak bende lain selain solat yang kita short cut or ambek jalan mudah...tak mengape kah begitu?..bila kita tau limit untuk menggunakan alasan yang Islam itu mudah dan tak membebankan?...kalau semua nak simple boleh ke?....persoalan nih bugs me for quite a time already...sebab saye sendiri pon among orang yang suke men-simple-kan bende...hehe....what do you think?

wallahua'lam~

pagi buta

2008-02-08T03:08:00.000-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

sekarang jam 3 pagi. hari jumaat.baru selesai struggle siapkan homework.esok ade kelas lagi.hopefully mampu untuk bangun dan pegi ke kelas.ashwaq jangan malas.minggu ni dah banyak miss class.huhuhu....tapi bukan sengaja....gangguan kesihatan sebab perubahan cuaca(read: saye mengaku saye malas untuk ke class) ...^_^...it's always fun if you have something else to blame for your own mistake..but really...bukan sengaja taknak ke class..tapi penat sangat minggu nih...sebab tu tak terbangun untuk ke class.huhuhu.maaf! okay saye nak kene tido dah, if not all this rumbling cam terkene balek kat diri sendri...heh~

good luck pada yang exam esok.good luck pada yang ade homework due esok.good luck pada orang yang da tade ape ape untuk minggu nih.^_^.

.W.A.R.N.I.N.G.

2008-02-05T22:12:00.000-06:00

Assalamualaikum....

There was a tornado warning this evening here in Nashville..so budak2 Vandy pon terkena jugaklaa warning nye..and sume tadi berlari2 kalut nak masuk Morgan...which sume orang pon turun ke basement...tempat perlindungan kalau tornado datang...but it was not all that serious..the tornado was only passing by our downtown. It was from somewhere down west of Nashville.

When we were on the way to get our homeworks earlier, the situation was havoc outside....people were running, lighting were stricking...and time tu..terdetik kat hati ... nih baru tornado warning yang kecik dah tak seberapa..dah bunyi sirennye pon hanyut2 je ...macamane kalau ngan hari Akhirat nanti?...dengan bunyi sangkakalanye...dengan lagi dashyatnye keadaan...dengan lagi ramai manusia...and tade tempat macam Morgan dah untuk lari berlindung...cume amal yang kita buat kat dunia nih laa sebagai Morgan kita....

ya Allah, sediakanlah hamba2Mu ini menghadapi hari PembalasanMu..amiin~

p/s: thanks to kak Ena, Nazirah and Dayana yang feed me sampai kenyang ... sekarang dah ngantok ^_^..TIME KACIH =)

dulu sekarang dan masa mendatang...semua lain

2008-02-03T21:49:00.000-06:00

Assalamualaikum... heh~so I'm officially 20 arinih..yeay me!!..heheh....another year that I have to grow up, another year I'm closer to death, another year to increase my amal even more =)

Bismillah..

Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku! Perbaikilah agamaku yang merupakan pengawal urusankanku. Perbaikilah duniaku yang merupakan tempat hidupku. Perbaikilah akhiratku yang merupakan tempat kembaliku; dan jadikanlah kehidupan ini sebagai tambahan dalam setiap kebaikan, serta jadikanlah kematian sebagai istirahat bagiku daripada segala kejahatan

Amiin~

I've changed a lot since 20 years living kat bumi Allah nih...but...the years that I think I really have my own personality is mase Form 1 kot...mase tuh baru tahu what I want and like (eventho bende2 tuh sume tak betul..huhu =p) Changing takes gut..especially changing to doing what is right .... kan?...insyaAllah Allah akan permudahkan jalan kita untuk itu....

~Every dai'e has his past and every thief has his future~

D.R.E.A.M.ing

2008-02-02T01:06:00.001-06:00

It is never wrong to dream kann?..heh..someone very dear to me told me before that, "Today's achievement is yesterday's dream"....and I think that is very true because only through these dream can we really set our goal for the future and work to achieve it

One of my personal dream is to own a Mercedes Benz S Class one day and have my mother and father ride with me! insyaAllah...=D .. i'm gonna work hard to make that dream a reality (cliche giler ayat..huhuh) .....emmm..here is a picture of it..sweet ride isn't it?...ape lagi people, start DREAMING! ^_^

Lame-ness

2008-02-01T16:29:00.000-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

Here I am...sitting here..behind the reeve desk..on a FRIDAY evening...yess...a very nice evening that I could have spent in my room...makan nasik masjid...kambing..yummm...n then tidooooo~...pastuh lepak2...aihhh...but...what can I do..I'm already here (",) Selamat bekerja Ashwaq~! ^_^ I can't get more lame than this..heh

Alamak!..ade orang ilang beg...cemnaerr ni?..naseb baik tade orang marah sayer yang bekerja nih..but I think thebeg was in front of my eyes jer..and i lost it while it was under my nose....huhuh..and the person is all cranky sekarang nih...cuak2...=( naseb baik Resident Life Coordinator tu ader handle sumer bender...haiihh...semoga Allah sediakan jalan keluar terbaik..amiinn~

Yes..tengah rajin nak post ^_^

2008-01-31T18:09:00.000-06:00

Assalamualaikum...

well...since last post yang really2 updated things..it was before last semester's finals...haha...I'm ashamed of myself laa...tak dapat nak mengupdate selalu...heee~ gomen2!...

Well..it is now a new Spring Semester dah..and setakat nih...everything is well...subjects pon macam ade harapan untuk score je sem nih...insyaAllah..but don't wanna put hopes too high..sebab nanti jadik overconfident lak =p

Last two weeks had been spent kat al-Maghrib class...SERONOK..masyaAllah..takleh nak cakap seronok dia macamane...dia punyer seronok tu kne experience sendiri (semangat giler nih becerite...huhuhu) learnt a lot of things, did a lot of things too....and alhamdulillah ukhuwwah pon makin rapat...sukeee laaa sayeeee =D
Nazirah..nanti kite gi same2 eyk! anda drive lak time tuh..insyaAllah ;D

I'm going home this MAY!!!...Oh...oh...mebi I'm extra hyper sebab ticket flight sampai tadi =D...alhamdulillah...epy epy epy *lompat lompat* heee~

Okay...enuf of updating..nak leave readers ngan satu video yang menarik...may Allah reward the person yang came up with this idea...buatkan kami yang tonton video nih lebih conscious dengan ape kami buat...especially untuk bangun Subuh and ketika makan...you'll understand it insyaAllah lepas dah tengok video nih..selamat menonton!~wallahua'lam~

Something fun to do when banyak homework!

2008-01-31T17:42:00.000-06:00

(took this from Masita's blog)

Details: you must type the answer to each question into a Google Image search, then pick an image from the first page of results.

1. Age at next birthday:
2. Place I would like to travel:

3. My favorite place:
4. My favorite objects:

5. My favorite food:

6. My favorite color:

all of this results are baswed on current mood...except for the age and fave food part. I always am certain what my stomach wants! =D

F.I.N.A.L.S

2007-12-13T15:35:00.000-06:00

Final exams are finally here...huhuhu...penat2 and berdebar2 sume orang...insyaAllah berkat usaha kita yang berpatutan...tawakkal kita akan membuahkan hasil...Allah kan Maha Pengasih dan Maha Adil ^_^....humm...saje nak share satu doa...

Ya Allah ya tuhanku...

Jika sesuatu perkara itu adalah terbaik buat diriku, agamaku, masa depanku, kehidupan dunia akhiratku dan membawaku lebih dekat kepadaMu, permudahkanlah perkara itu untukku, hampirkanlah perkara itu padaku, bukakanlah hatiku pada perkara itu...

dan Jika sesuatu perkara itu adalah buruk untuk diriku, agamaku, masa depanku, kehidupan dunia akhiratku dan menjauhkan diriku dari mengingatiMu, menjauhkan aku dariMu, jauhkanlah aku dari perkara itu, lindungilah dan peliharakanlah aku dari perkara itu, dan tutupkanlah pintu hatiku dari perkara itu....

amiiin....

doa nih bagus kalau kita tak berkesempatan untuk solat istikharah..and solat istikharah bukanlah semata2 untuk hal2 kawen jer..but for all matters in our lives involving making decisions....which mcm hari2 jer ade kee..so...klu diamalkan slalu..insyaAllah keputusan yang kita buat sehari2an adalah yang terbaik dan membawa kita lebih dekat kepada Allah

good luck everyone for the finals!...usaha dulu pulun2..then kite tawakkal eyhh..jangan give up awal2 lagi...^_^V

wallahua'lam~

Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan

2007-12-09T00:56:00.000-06:00

I came across this pantun while surfing the internet....kind of interesting to read and to ponder on...hehehe...

10 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Bertemasya di Pantai Sri Pengkalan
Satu kena rogol beramai-ramai
Tinggal lagi Sembilan.

9 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Berpesta seks - video lucah di apartmen
Satu sempat dicekup pencegah maksiat
Tinggal lagi lapan.

8 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Pergi ke konsert Jom Heboh
Satu hilang ikut jantan
Tinggal lagi tujuh.

7 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Jadi GRO di Kelab Nilam
Satu dibawa pulang oleh pelanggan dan dibunuh
Tinggal lagi enam.

6 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Berpesta arak dan karaoke di kota
Satu terus jadi pelacur
Tinggal lagi lima.

5 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Satu disuruh seludup dadah dan ditangkap
Tinggal lagi empat.

4 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Bercinta dengan Mat Hitam Uganda
Satu sudah murtad hendak kahwin
Tinggal lagi tiga.

3 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Terjebak dengan kumpulan bohsia
Satu ditangkap bunuh bayinya
Tinggal lagi dua.

2 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Jadi Minah Rempit bersama Mat Kutu
Satu mati eksiden ketika lumba haram
Tinggal lagi satu.

1 Puteri Tak Dilindungi Bulan
Sangat-sangat susah hati
Termenung-menung seorang diri
Bagai ayam mabuk tahi
Rasa hidup sunyi sepi
Berkurung dalam bilik setiap hari
Ibu bapa tak ambil peduli sibuk ke sana sini
Lalu terjun dari pangsapuri
Langsung diapun mati

-Dr Fatimah Busu

got the picture? ^_^

terhanyut atau MENGhanyutkan diri?

2007-12-05T22:29:00.001-06:00

semakin hanyut diri nie dengan hal-hal yang tak berpatutan...kenape sampai begini?

ape jadi pada diri yang dulu...yang walaupun tidak se-carefree begini...tapi lebih tenang and lebih bahagia...kenape tidak boleh begitu semula?

berulang kali mencuba berjalan di atas jalan yang lurus...tapi tak sampai selangkah diri ini jatuh jauuuh ...and terpesong lagi....memohon lagi pada Pencipta...bawalah diri in kepadaNya...dipermudahkan menghampiriNya...mendampingiNya...tapi....akhirnya..sendir juga yang memalingkan muka dari Yang Maha Pengasih dan Pengampun itu....bagaimanalah begitu?

yang sesat ditunjuk jalan..tapi kembali menyesatkan diri....sampai bila pon tidak jumpa jalan keluar dan tidak akan sampai ke destinasinya....mahu buat macamana?

life jacket dah dihulurkan dari pelbagai arah....tepi, depan, belakang...tapi..life jacket tuh hanyalah di tatap dan dipegang hujung2...mane nk membantu orang yang sedang hanyut...bukannye tak mampu menyarungkan life jacket tu sendiri...tapi kedegilan dan kurangnya yakin menyebabkan diri ini hanya memandang sahaja life jacket itu....ntah bila mahu betul2 disarung...mungkin bila sudah sampai dihujung air terjun atau curam yang dalam baru mahu disarung...na'uzubillah....

wahai orang yang hanyut, BANGKITLAH...BERJUANGLAH...BERKORBANLAH

teringin begini..tapi tidak mampu...rendah sungguh rasenyer

2007-11-05T19:53:00.001-06:00

Pernah seketika dulu saya rasa saya tak berguna..
Masa dalam kelas kawan-kawan semua tak suka..
Saya nak 'join', kawan kata saya menyibuk..
Ada pula yang kate saya kuat emo..
Sikit-sikit nak marah..
Padahal sebenarnye saya nak tegur mereka buat bising masa belajar..

Lepas tu saya cuba buat lawak
kononnya nak tarik perhatian orang lain
saya paling gembira bila ada orang gelak bila dengar lawak saya
terutamanya pelajar-pelajar perempuan..
Budak-budak lelaki semua kata saya 'mat capub'(cari publisiti)..
tapi saya tak kesah..
asalkan ada yang terhibur..

Tapi saya tetap merasakan kekosongan..
Memang lumrah manusia..
Seoarang lelaki akan tertarik kepada wanita
Macam itulah yang saya rasa..
Saya tengok kawan-kawan dah ada yang 'couple'..
Di dorm sms awek sampai pagi..
ada yang call awek sampai satu malam boleh habis 10 ringgit..

Saya mula berfikir..
"Adakah aku perlu BERCINTA?"
Dengan menggunakan akal seorang pelajar tingkatan 4 itu..
saya pun mula menanam tekad untuk ber'couple'. .
Dan masa itulah saya kenal awak..
saya rase saya dah jumpa orang yang paling penting dalam hidup saya..

Mula-mula awak jual mahal..
Tapi saya tak kisah..nak beli gak..
akhirnya, dipendekkan cerita..
saya pun mulalah BERCINTA..

Masa bercinta,memang saya sangat-sangat bersemangat
Apa orang kata..'ALL OUT'lah..
haha..
Saya selalu call awak,awak pun selalu call saya..
'gayut' malam-malam. .kadang-kadang saya pun habis RM10 satu malam..
Tetapi segala PENGORBANAN yg dilakukan masa ber'couple' tu..
Tidak terasa pun kehilangannya. .

Mase bercinta memang indah..
Semuanya indah..
Sikit-sikit gurau-gurau
Sikit-sikit gelak-gelak
kalau merajuk men pujuk2..
kalau 'birthday' kita sambut sama-sama..

Untuk diri ini,terasa amat bahagia..
Sebab masa itulah terasa diri ini dihargai..
Saya pernah terikir..
Biarlah kawan-kawan saya tu pandang saya semacam,
kata saya macam-macam. .
Asalkan awak memahami saya..

Satu hari saya dengar ceramah..
Alhamdulillah. .
Dalam ceramah tu saya sedar,saya banyak buat dosa
dan saya kena brubah..
Hidup saya mesti selari dengan Islam..
Saya kena jadi baik..
Sebab memang itu fitrah manusia..mengingina kan kebaikan..
semua orang nak masuk syurga kan?

Sejak dari saat itu saya mula rapatkan diri dengan masjid..
Rapatkan diri dengan Al-Quran..
Selalu solat jemaah awal waktu..
Selalu dengar tazkirah..

Saya beli terjemahan Quran, sebab nak tadabbur Quran
Saya beli dua, satu untuk saya, satu untuk awak,
Saya taknak jadi baik seorang diri..
jadi saya ajak awak sekali..
Saya ajak awak baca Al-Quran..
saya kejut awk bangun subuh..(calling)
saya ajak awak saling beri tazkirah..

Mula-mula awak terkejut dengan perubahan saya..
Awak ingat saya dah nak jadi alim, nak brenti couple.
Saya kata,kita bukan buat benda yang salah..
bercinta kerana Allah..
Kita couple tak macam orang lain..
Orang lain couple 'jiwang-jiwang' je..
ade yang siap wat mksiat lg..
pegang-pegang tangan dan macam-macam lagi..
Tapi kita couple baik-baik..
Jaga batas-batas syara'..
Tak guna ayat jiwang-jiwang
janji taknak jumpa, takut berlaku maksiat..
cuma sms dan call je..

Dan awk terima perubahan saya itu..
Saya pun banyak nasihat awak..
Awk pun terima..
Walaupun kadang-kadang awak merajuk sebab teguran saya tu
Tapi saya faham, perubahan memerlukan masa..
Dan akhirnya saya rasa..
Hubungan kita semakin diredahai..
Saya salu doa supaya kita akan kekal sampai ke gerbang perkahwinan. .

Dalam proses perubahan saya,
Saya mula menyedari bahawa berdakwah itu wajib..
Kita kena menyampaikan kepada orang tentang kebenaran.
Kalau kita tidak berdakwah..
kita akan dipertanggungjawabk an oleh Allah di akhirat kelak.
sesuai dgn firmanNya dlm surah Al-A'raf,
surah ke 7,ayat ke 164:

Dan (ingatlah) ketika suatu umat di
antara mereka berkata: "Mengapa kamu
menasihati kaum yang Allah akan
membinasakan mereka atau mengazab mereka
dengan azab yang amat keras?" Mereka
menjawab: "Agar kami mempunyai alasan
(pelepas tanggung jawab) kepada Tuhanmu,
dan supaya mereka bertakwa".

Lepas tu saya mulalah beri tazkirah pada kawan-kawan dan adik-adik
Tegur mereka apa sahaja yang silap..
Saya tak boleh tahan bila tengok orang buat salah/dose..
Saya mesti nak tegur.
Selemah2 iman tegur dengan hati, oleh sebab saya nak jadi orang kuat iman..
Ape lagi..tegur je la depan-depan. .huhu~~

Lepas tu, satu masa..
saya terbaca pasal couple..

"COUPLE HARAM"

Saya tak percaya..
tapi bila baca detail-detail yang dia bagi..
macam betul pulak..
huhu~~
tapi biasala..
kalau kita suka satu benda tu..
kita tetap akan cari alasan untuk 'membenarkan' pendapat kita..

Saya pun buat tak tahu pasal benda tu..
dan teruskan saja hubungan kita..
kita tak buat maksiat..
Kita jalan-jalan pegang tangan..
tak jiwang-jiwang. .
Cuma saling ambil berat..
Tanya khabar..
Borak-borak. .
Siap bagi tzkirah lagi..
Apa yang haramnya dengan benda ni?
Tak kisahlah..

Masa terus berlalu...

Masa ni dah nak dekat Trial SPM..
lagi tiga minggu sebelum trial..
dalam masa tu, saya memang rajin study dengan kawan..
buat study group
Pada masa yang sama, bagi tazkirah..

Ada yang terima..
ada juga yang buat tak tahu
Kadang-kadang bila tegur..
saya kena marah pula..
macam-macamlah alasannya
ada kata saya tegur tak berhikmah..
ada yang kata saya menunjuk-nunjuk je..
Tapi tak kisah..
saya ada tempat mengadu..
huhu~~

Suatu masa..
ketika sedang mentadabbur Al-Quran seorang diri..
saya terjumpa ayat ini..

Mengapa kamu suruh orang lain
(mengerjakan) kebajikan, sedang kamu
melupakan diri (kewajiban) mu sendiri,
padahal kamu membaca Al Kitab (Taurat)?
Maka tidakkah kamu berfikir?
(Al-Baqarah, ayat 44)

Saya pun terfikir..

"Selama ini aku asyik tegur orang je.
Tapi aku sendiri masih banyak kekurangan,
Cepat marah, suka buang masa,
ade gak dosa-dosa yang masih dilakukan..
Macam mana ya?"

Lepas tu terjumpa pula ayat ini..

Dan janganlah kamu campur adukkan yang
hak dengan yang batil dan janganlah kamu
sembunyikan yang hak itu, sedang kamu
mengetahui.
(Al-Baqarah ayat 42)

Tiba-tiba saya terfikir satu keritikan kawan..

"Alah kau tu..cakap je berapi..gaya alim,tapi couple gak..sama aje kau
dengan kami..tegur orang konon.."

Berfikir sejenak..
Sebenarnye ber'couple' ni boleh ke tidak?
Adakah selama ini saya hanya menganggap ia boleh?
Habis tu, kenapa saya rasa malu bila mak dan ayah
tahu saya selalu berhubung dengan perempuan?
Dan terkadang saya rasa serba salah?

Macam-macam yang saya fikir..

Dipendekkan cerita lagi sekali..
saya ke Pulau Pinang untuk mengikuti satu seminar dkwh..
Saya harap dengan seminar ni kefahaman saya mengenai dakwah akan lebih mantap..

Dalam perjalanan ke seminar tu..
saya masih sms lagi dengan awak dalam bas..
sempat lagi pesan-pesan supaya jangan lupa baca Al-Quran hari ini, solat awal waktu..
Dalam fikiran saya..
"Ni kira dakwah juga..saling ingat-mengingati. ."

******

Majlis malam itu berakhir dengan sesi ta'aruf,
pukul 10 semua orang dah bebas untuk aktiviti sendiri
Lagipun kami semua penat..
takkan nak panjang-panjangkan program sampai tengah malam..
pihak penganjur pun faham..

Tiba-tiba saya tergerak hati untuk bertanya dengan fasilitator yang ada di situ..
Saya rasa inilah masa terbaik untuk tanya pendapat dia tentang couple.
Tapi saya tragak-agak. .
"Kalaulah betul couple tu salah..habis tu,nak
buat macam mana? Aku kena clash ke?
Alah,buat apa fikir macam tu..tanya je la. Kalau
tak buat salah, apa nak ditakutkan?"

Lalu saya menghampiri 'Brother' fasilitator tu..
Masa tu dia tengah membelek-belek terjemahan Al-Qurannya seorang diri.

"Assalamualaikum, bang, saya nak tanya sikit
boleh?"

"Em,boleh..duduklah . Nta nak tanya apa?"

"Er..macam ni,sebelum saya terlibat dengan dakwah ni, saya ada kenal seorang
kawan ni, perempuan la. Tapi bukanla setakat kawan biasa..rapat gak la. Bukan rapat biasa,tapi rapatla.."

"Bercinta ke?"

Saya malu nak cakap yang saya couple. Nanti apa pula brother tu kate..mesti dia marah nnt. Saya pun angguk. Lepas tu saya tanya..

"Sebenarnya. .couple ni boleh ke tak bang?"

"Akhi, memang fitrah manusia, lelaki akan tertarik kepada perempuan, begitu juga perempuan akan tertarik kepada lelaki. Tapi dalam Islam, perasaan itu perlu dikawal dan ada batasnya. Pergaulan perlu dijaga. Allah firman dalam surah Al-Isra', surah ke 17, dalam ayat yg ke 32:
Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina; sesungguhnya zina itu adalah suatu perbuatan yang keji dan suatu jalan yang buruk."

"Tapi bang,saya tak nampak pun yang kami ni menghampiri zina. Niat kami baik. Saya dah cuba sedaya upaya mengawal perhubungan kami. Sms pun takdelah jiwang-jiwang, selalu bagi tazkirah lagi. Kami selang-selang bagi, hari ni saya, esok dia."

Saya tak mahu mengalah.

"Memang betul niat nta baik. Tapi ingat, niat tak pernah menghalalkan cara. Yang batil tetap sahaja batil, yang haq tetap haq. Cuba tengok ayat ni."
Sambil brother tu bukak Al-Quran dia, dan tunjuk pada saya ayat ini:
Dan (juga) kaum Ad dan Tsamud, dan sungguh telah nyata bagi kamu (kehancuran mereka) dari (puing-puing) tempat tinggal mereka. Dan setan menjadikan mereka memandang baik
perbuatan-perbuatan mereka, lalu ia menghalangi mereka dari jalan (Allah), sedangkan mereka adalah orang-orang yang berpandangan tajam.
(Surah Al-Anakabut, Surah 29, ayat 38)

"Akhi, kalau nta paham ayat ni, sebenarnya apa yang berlaku pada nta ialah, setan telah buat nta pandang indah benda buruk yang nta lakukan. Walaupun nta berpandangan tajam, maksudnya nta berilmu tinggi. Memang pada mulanya niat nta baik, tapi ingat, syaitan itu sangat licik. Dia akan sedaya upaya buat nta terjerumus ke dalam kemaksiatan. Lagipun, takkanlah sepanjang masa nta sms dengan dia, nta ingat Allah. Mesti ada masanya nta hanya melayan perasaan dengan dia, kan?"

Betul juga katanya. Lepas tu saya kata, "Tapi bang, saya dah janji dengan dia taknak jumpa lg. Sebab saya tahu kalau berjumpa nanti banyak bahayanya. Dan dia pun setuju. Kami sama-sama menjaga diri. Takkanlah ia boleh membawa kepada zina juga bang?"

"Em, betul, nta dah janji taknak jumpa dengan dia lagi. Nta dah dapat

elakkan zina mata, zina tangan, zina kaki. kalau nta janji taknak call die pula, nta dapat elak zina telinga dan zina lidah. Tapi akh..masih ada zina yang tetap nta tak dapat elak apabila bercouple.."

"Zina hati?" Saya menduga.

"Betul, zina hati. Semua inilah yang Rasulullah jelaskan dalam hadithnya tentang bagaimana menghampiri zina tu. Nta boleh 'check' dalam Riyadahus Solihin, bawah bab larangan melihat wanita. Rasulullah bersabda, mata boleh berzina dgn melihat, lidah boleh berzina dengan bercakap, tangan boleh berzina dengan berpegangan. Kaki boleh berzina dengan berjalan ke arah tempat maksiat. Hati pula boleh berzina dgn merindui, mengingati dan membayangi si dia. Hakikatnye, macam mana pun nta buat, nta tetap tak dapat lari daripada zina hati."

Saya terdiam..kelu. Tak tahu apa nak dikata. Semua yang brother tu kata tiada yang salahnya. Kemudian dia sambung..

"Ana dulu pun couple gak. Lagi lama daripada nta. Sejak sekolah sampai dah masuk U, dekat nak gred. Tapi bila ana sedar apa yang ana buat ni salah, ana trus tinggalkan. Ana siap dah fikir, dialah bakal isteri ana, yang akan jadi ibu kepada anak-anak ana. Kalau nak diikutkan lagi besar masalah ana daripada nta."

"Saya risau la bang. Nanti apa kawan-kawan dia kata. Dulu saya selalu minta tolong mereka untuk rapat dengan dia. Mesti nanti mereka semua tak puas hati dengan saya. Dan dia sendiri pula, saya takut apa-apa akan jadi pada dia kalau dia tak dapat terima keputusan ni. Sebab kami dah rapat sgt."

Masa tu saya dah mula sebak. Malu betul. Menangis depan brother tu cerita pasal benda ni. Nasib baik tak ada org lain masa tu. Brother tu jwb..

"Kalau kawan-kawan dia tak puas hati pun, mereka boleh buat apa? Paling teruk pun, mereka akan mengata di belakang nta. Nta tak kurang sikit pun. Lagipun, dalam berdakwah ni, kita nak cari redha Allah, biarlah orang nak kata apa-apa sekali pun, yang penting redha Allah. Kalau Allah tak redha, semuanya dah tak bermakna lagi."

Saya trdiam lagi.

"Pasal die pula, cube nta fikir dari sudut positif, mungkin dia akan terima keputusan nta scara matang. Mungkin dia juga akan buat keputusan untuk tidak lagi bercouple. Ana yakin, die takkan buat apa-apa perkara bodoh. Kalau die buat sekalipun, itu bukan tagguungjawab nta, apa yang nta nak buat tu betul, meninggalkan maksiat. Semua orang akan tanggung balasan atas perbuatannya sndiri."

Saya dah tak dapat tahan lagi. Masa itu saya menangis, saya dah sdar yang saya kena berhenti couple. Dah jelas sekarang, couple tu haram.

"Jadi apa saya nak buat bang?"

"Ana dulu, hantar satu sms je kat dia. Ana terangkan pada dia hubungan yang dibina itu salah. Minta maaf, kita berakhir di sini. Tolong jangan cari saya lagi. Lepas itu ana terus tukar nombor. Ana tak hubungi dia langsung lepas tu."

"Maksudnya, saya tak boleh hubungi dia lagi ke? Tapi bang, saya ade juga kawan perempuan lain, boleh pula saya hubungi mereka?"

"Dengan dia ni lain. Nta dah pernah ada 'sejarah' dengan dia. Tapi, kalau nanti ditaqdirkan nta satu universiti dengan dia, satu kuliah, lepas tu kena pula buat group discussion, masa tu nta hanya layan dia hanya sebagai group discussion partner."

Tiba-tiba saya terfikir..

"Dia ni nak suruh aku clash malam ni gak ke? Sekarang gak? Takkanlah awal sangat?"

Saya cakap..

"Saya rasa saya belum ade kekuatan la bang. Boleh tak saya tunggu sampai saya ada kekuatan, baru saya tiggalkan benda ni?"

Saya ingat nak lari la. Lalu dia jawab..

"Akh, nta kena ingat. Kekuatan itu tidak boleh ditunggu, tapi ia perlu dibina. Allah tidak akan mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sehingga kaum itu mengubah keadaannya sendiri. Nta boleh rujuk surah Ar-Ra'du,surah ke-13,ayat 11. Lagipun, nta nak tuggu sampai bila baru nak tinggalkan couple ni..abang-abang fasilitator ni pun ramai yang pernah couple, bila masuk dakwah, mereka tiggalkan."

Alamak...tak boleh lari lagilah nampaknye..saya rasa macam brother ni paksa saya clash masa tu juga.

"Semuanya dah jelas rasanya..Nampaknya saya kena tiggalkanla benda ni gak ye. Macam tak larat rasanya nak tekan button handphone ni. Rasa tak sanggup."

"Kalau tak sanggup mari ana tolong tekankan."

"Eh, tak apalah bang. Biar saya taip sendiri."

Teragak-agak saya nak taip masa tu. Tapi saya gagahkn juga diri..

"Semuanya dah jelas..buat apa aku tangguh-tangguh lagi. Takut nanti hidayah ni Allah tarik, susah pula nak tinggalkan. Kan aku selalu doa supaya dijauhkan dari maksiat..jadi rasanya, inilah masanya.."

Lalu perlahan-lahan saya taip sms tu..

"Assalamualaikum. .Sebenarnya selama ini hubungan kita salah di sisi Islam. Saya ingat dengan mengubah cara pergaulan kita, ia dah dibolehkan, tapi sebenarnya ia tetap berdosa. Saya harap awak akan istiqamah meneruskan perubahan yang awak dah buat, kerana Allah. Saya minta maaf atas segala yang dah berlaku. Kalau ada jodoh insya-Allah, akan bertemu juga. Assalamualaikum. ."

Berat betul nak hantar sms tu kat awk. Saya masih tak mampu nak ucap selamat tiggal. Sebab tu dalam sms tu saya hanya akhirkan dengan ucapan salam. Lepas beberapa ketika..saya tekan juga button [send].

Lepas tu tertera di skrin..

[SENDING..]

[MESSAGE SENT]

Masa tu saya rasa macam separuh hidup saya dah hilang. Macam tak percaya..saya dah hantar 1 sms, dan clash dengan awak..

"Terima kasih bang.."

"Takpe, dah tanggungjawab. ."

Malam tu saya saya tidur dengan linangan air mata..tak sangka..mmg tak disangka..Saya memang tak pernah terfikir untuk clash, tapi itulah yang terbaik untuk kita sbenarnya..
Tiba-tiba saya teringat ayat Allah..surah Al-Baqarah,ayat 216..

Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal berperang itu adalah sesuatu yang kamu benci. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.

*******

Masa terus berlalu.. Saya terus sibukkan diri dengan kerja-kerja lain. Dalam usaha nak lupekan awk, bukan senang,tapi saya terus cuba. Saya selalu bagi tazkirah, ingatkan orang.
Saya bagi ta'lim di msjid, terangkan pada orang, couple haram, tunjuk segala dalil.. Macam-macam yang berlaku..ada kritikan..ade gk yg stuju..tapi tak kisahlah semua tu..

Tiba-tiba satu pagi ni, dapat sms daripada awak..awak bagi gambar bunga..bawah tu ada ayat..

"Seindah gubahan pertama.."

Saya rasa awak masih tak dapat lupakan saya. Saya pun fikir.."Kena tegaskan rasanya". Lepas tu saya hantarlah sms ni. Dan rasanya itulah yg terakhir..

"Tiada yang lebih indah daripada mendapat keredahaan ilahi..seindah manapun gubahan pertama tu, selagi tak mendapat keredahaanNya, tetap tiada gunanya..

Assalamualaikum. .saya tahu, dulu saya cakap, kalau ada jodoh, insya-Allah akan bertemu juga. Tapi saya taknak awak tunggu. Lupakan saya. Biar Allah yang menentukan.. Lagi satu,

Jangan cari cinta manusia,
ia penuh dengan penipuan,
kekecewaan,
dan tak kekal..

Tapi carilah cinta Allah..
tiada penipuan,
tidakkan pernah mengecewakan
itulah cinta abadi..
Cinta yang diredahai..

-Yang Terakhir- "

[SEND]

[SENDING..]

[MESSAGE SENT]

Saya dah buat keputusan.
Saya pasti apa yang saya buat ni betul.
Saya yakin, Allah akan sediakan yang terbaik untuk saya.
Saya takkan berpatah balik..

Takkan..buat selama-lamanya.

absent-ness

2007-11-02T13:23:00.000-05:00

Sorry for the very long silence...sorry to my friends..asek jer kne suruh update baru nk update kan?...huhu...it had been more than a month! It's not that I don't have anything to write about..is it as this...I kind of compose my entry in my head when there is something to say..but later on in the day I'll flush my thoughts away...by the time I'm free to write...nada..nothing..emptiness is the only thing filling my head...hahaha (giler drama) but...REALLY...I'm not as inspired as my friends are kot..=D

So...what happened? A LOT. My last entry was about the first day of Ramadhan ..So..what I have to say about what happened a month and a half later are these..

# My Ramadhan this year was not one of the best...kelemahan diri sendri mengatasi rase ingin berubah dan berjuang itu...haihhh laaa...

# My Eid was mostly sad than fun. Heh...maybe sebab puase tak best jugak kot kan? Sold my our car on the first day of raya..smpi today pon tak setel2 lagi hal kete tuh..

# Went to Chicago for Fall Break..spent all four days there...aaaaaa..I LIKE IT A LOT..thanks to our very very
kind and loving host Akak Zed Diana..thanks! Went shopping in downtown Chicago and also Outlet..hehe...bought me a BIG and very useful handbag and a pair of black shoes with HEELS ^_^ (finally dapat gak kasut yang sesuai...)

# Went to DC for Raya celebration at the embassy...ske ske ske..dapat roadtrip ^_^ it was funnn and dapat amek gamba lawa juge...So...I'm happy ^_^

I guess those are the eventful things in my life for the past month, besides all the usuals-studying, homework yang menggunung, lab reports yang mcm nk bunuh orang, quizzes and exams..done with one test this morning..Transport...huhu...it was good...I think I did okay..insyaAllah the result is okay too... next week 2 more exams and the week after one last exam...AND then THANKSGIVING BREAK..yoohoo...am looking forward for it....what to do? still thinking..any ideas??...I might end up staying here in Vandy- studying...preparing for the finals =P...NO kidding..rite...I'll update later...tata~!

P/S: dah ade iPod nano sekarang...sukeee~ :D

With Arms Wide Open...

2007-09-13T14:08:00.000-05:00

Alhamdulillah...Ramadhan is here and I'm still here for another wonderful month insyaAllah with Ramadhan ^_^

Last night was the first night of Tarawih. Went to ICN with the sisters...*rase besyukur sangat sbb still ade kesempatan untuk beramal lagi dalam bulan mulia nih*...I was so overwhelmed, suke sangat Ramadhan * yeeeeeeeeeee *

Unfortunately for me, first day of breaking fast is at work *=( apelaa naseb* hehe...but I guess I'm much luckier than other people...people who's thinking what to eat? where to get the food? what about tomorrow? what will their children have?....
Oh Allah, bless those people and grant upon them your plenty sustenance and make us among the pious and righteous servants...Amin~

Here is a hadith to ponder on, since our theme is Ramadhan (^_^),

Narrated Abu Huraira:
Allah's Apostle said, "When the month of Ramadan starts, the gates of the heaven are opened and the gates of Hell are closed and the devils are chained."

-Sahih Bukhari, Volume 3, Book 31, Number 123:

Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan...

2007-09-04T15:05:00.000-05:00

Without realizing it, my favorite month of the year is just by the corner. Yup! Ramadhan is just next week insyaAllah.....next Thursday according to the calendar, we'll see how it goes.

(rase cam tulis essay laa plak) Why I love Ramadhan so much? Sadly and shamefully to say, it is the only month that I am able to make myself practice good deeds and ibadah that I set my goals on ... alhamdulillah Allah has given me chance to do so for the past 10 years of my fasting-life. What I wish for this time around is that I can achieve more and do more in this month and here is the important part, I hope I can stay istiqamah forever, not just in the month of Ramadhan...

Although Ramadhan is only a week a way, there is still no absolute promise that I'll be able to meet up with Ramadhan or even live through the month of Ramadhan. So, I don't want to wait for Ramadhan to come and only then start doing good things. Ramadhan is not the reason to our ibadah, our love towards Allah is. And Allah is always here, not only in Ramadhan....

So I say,stop holding up and let all of us collect our might, and start exercising good behaviors and let go of our bad habits ...insyaAllah

Wallahua'lam~

big PICTURE

2007-09-03T11:38:00.000-05:00

I'm already in my Junior year in college...yesssnesss!! *jumping jumping*...huhu...meaning I'll be done with college life in 1 year plus plus *grinnnn* but it also means that heavier loads of materials to be learned *BIG sigh*

As I was walking..or rather, hurrying (bangun lewat maaa =p) to class this morning, I was complaining to myself about my first class for today, why doesn't the professor explain to us about the concepts and THEN let us answer the question...but then again when I re-think about it, all the concepts and applications involved was learned in previous classes and semesters before, it is actually repeating the same concepts each and every time, the only thing that changes is the way we apply them and on what type of situation we apply them on...that's it. Sound simple rite?...huhuhu...but to actually be doing it, takes time and a LOT of thinking and discussing....

It turned out that things that I thought I learned before might be useless in the future, is actually what's important for me now...come again? I somewhat regret the way I take things for granted...

So..as a lesson for me and maybe some of you...in learning, everything is IMPORTANT...don't ASSUME that some things are best to be left out of the picture cause when you look at the big picture, you'll see the MISSING pieces ....

wallahua'lam~

Jaw Dropping Jump Roping

2007-08-30T18:22:00.000-05:00

:: Apparently I had the title wrong =(...it's actually is jump roping instead of rope jumping...LOL (^_^) ::

I spent all evening watching videos on Youtube....something I haven't done for quite awhile...I need to stop now...my chair is getting hot and I need to get ready for things tonight..EAT!...hehehhe...^_^

Enjoy this video, ..want to share it with you

Father, Son and Holy Spirit

2007-08-24T20:43:00.000-05:00

I was told that the concept of Trinity was never mentioned in neither the Old Testament or the New Testament, and when I did my searching on Wikipedia (where else rite? =D), I found this :
"Neither the Old Testament nor New Testament uses the term 'Trinity', though Trinitarians believe the concept is implicit in various biblical passages"

How can a very important foundation of a religion failed to be mention in their Holy Scripture anywhere? Weird huh...hard to register the fact into my mind...

But, try to ponder on this, the concept of Trinity-mentioned in the Holy Qur'an. How's that for a fact? IT'S TRUE! But, the Holy Qur'an REJECTS the concept of TRINITY. A very short and clear Surah mention about it.

Translation:

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.
Say: He is Allah, the One! Allah,
the eternally Besought of all!
He begetteth not nor was begotten.
And there is none comparable unto Him.

and let's compare it to this (got it from Wiki again):
"In Christianity, the doctrine of the Trinity states that God is one being who exists, simultaneously and eternally, as a mutual indwelling of three persons: the Father, the Son (incarnate as Jesus of Nazareth), and the Holy Spirit."

And let's match them..

1. the Father - nor was begotten (has no father-not born)
2. the Son - He begetteth not (has no son-don't give birth)
3. The Holy Spirit - there is none comparable unto Him

Islam rejects all three claims specifically and clearly in just one short Surah..indeed this is a special Surah..Wallahua'lam

Distraction

2007-07-29T00:56:00.000-05:00

My textbook is wide open in front of me...crying out for me to read it...huhu...sorry buku....why am I so lazy huh? I soo want to read and study but there are too many distractions around me...I once remember watching one episode of Malcolm in the Middle where Malcolm's eldest brother need to study to pass an examination that was soo important....but he was so easily distracted that he was forced to study in an empty room with nothing with him except for his textbook...but..to his delight, he was able to find a reason to distract him from studying, a strand of hair or a dust, I can't really remember....thank you Allah that I'm not thaatt baadly distracted...but still..I have to work on my focus skills...huhuhu...it'll be bad if you're talking to someone about something serious but you are distracted by a stain on their face or even the reflection of light on their teeth (happened to me) *grin*....unimportant things becomes the only thing that we can think of at that time...how much I hate it when that happens...prevent me from doing something smoothly and the way it should be...camane nihh? =(

I guess it all come back to how we perform and carry out our deeds and ibadah ...because everything is reflected from them rite?....In my prayers, maybe I did not put enough khusyuk in it...that is why I'm so easily distracted by other stuff when I'm trying to finish my chores and works...sounds logical? let us all think about this for a moment shall we?

A hadith to reflect on this...(tanak cakap blindly w/o any persandaran to agama)

"The first matter that the slave will be brought to account for on the Day of Judgment is the prayer. If it is sound, then the rest of his deeds will be sound. And if it is bad, then the rest of his deeds will be bad." [Recorded by al-Tabarani. According to al-Albani, it is sahih. Al-Albani, Sahih al-Jami, vol.1, p. 503.

Demi Masa

2007-07-21T16:54:00.000-05:00

This Surah is among the shortest Surah in al-Quran. Surely, it is true that precious things come in small packages and that can be seen here in this surah....Allah reminds us about time...one thing that we always take for granted...even though at times we try really hard to treasure it...there will always come a time when we fail to really appreciate it... In this Surah, Allah swears by time... this shows how important time is..and then Allah proceed by saying 'Verily human being is at loss. Except for those who have faith and do righteous deeds and exhort one another to truth and exhort one another to patience'

See how beautiful the ayats of Allah swt is? First He remind us, so that we become aware, then He guide us, so that we are not lost and know what to do to bring ourselves closer to Him and gain His love. He is always here to guide us...He never leaves us ... when we feel lost, we can always come back to His words ... we recite it...and insyaAllah we'll find the way...

So, the short reminder here is that, in order to try our best not to fall into the category of people in loss, we must make sure that at every moment of our lives, we are in the state of iman, doing something good, at least once a day invite others to do good things, and remind them of something good...a simple question asking about their welfare is good enough..or blogging like this is good enough too *^_^* kot...klu ade orang bace laaa..hope it can be read and remind us about who we are and bring us back to Allah...insyaAllah~

Have we recite al-Quran today? Did we gave thanks to Allah for another day we are breathing on this earth? Did we think about our sins and ask Allah for forgiveness?
Know that Allah is always here for us...all we need to do is ask from Him...and insyaAllah...everything that is good for us in this world and Hereafter will become easier for us to achieve (ape punye ayat keling tunggang langgang laa nih...maaf...) ^_^V

Remember that Allah loves us ..it is us that need to learn to love Allah and need Allah's love...;P

wallahua'lam

Benefits of Solat

2007-07-02T22:15:00.000-05:00

RE-reading my blog told me that I overwhelmed my entry...huhu...sorry aa eh...was too absorbed with the content..should have wrote it shorter and make it more meaningful I guess..instead of just plain long...

So..this time I'll try to make it shorter....insyaAllah, using my already existing notes from previous halaqah and also usrah...I'll try to share it with you guys..insyaAllah....

:: The Benefits of Solat ::

There are many benefits of solat of course, and if you Google it too you'll get a lot of feedback...and here is one of the many...may we become more aware of our prayers after this...

1. Fajr (Subuh)
# whoever prays Fajr for 40 consecutive days (in Jamaah), he is exempted from two things,
(i) from Hellfire
(ii) from hypocrisy

2. Zuhr
# Allah will protect from the 'wave of heat' in Mahsyar on the Day of Judgement and also from the Hellfire

3. 'Asr
# it is the time when Adam and Eve ate from the forbidden tree
# whoever prays 'Asr, Allah will forgives all his sins just like the day he was born

4. Maghrib
# Allah forgives the sins of Adam
# whoever prays with complete certainty (khusyu') and hope to Allah, any du'a after the
prayer with expectation of reward from Allah will be mustajab

5. Isya'
# the only known mandatory solat on all the prophets before the assigned wajib solats
# two benefits from this is :
(i) Allah forbid Hellfire from punishing this servant
(ii) Allah will grant him a light while he is crossing the Sirat al-Mustaqeem

The first deed that will be judge on the Day of Judgement is his solats. If the solat is good, then all the other deeds are good.And if the solat is bad, then all of his other deeds are ruined - HR Thabrani

wallahua'lam

Prayer (Du'a)

2007-06-26T13:00:00.000-05:00

Every person in the world will come to a point in life, no matter if its the President of a country, a celebrity, even the richest person on earth, will come to a day that they will seek help or ask for guidance, to turn to something or someone asking for help, and the one resort that everyone turn to is a 'higher being', which for me, is only Allah SWT...no other than that..insyaAllah for every other Muslims too...

What causes me to bring up this topic is when listening to an online lecture, "Du'a, the Weapon of the Believers", and there are a lot more interesting lectures. So to explain all about the lecture here would be a tideous work to do...especially for a lazy bum like me (^_^) ...heeheee, so I will only share one part of the whole lecture, with the hope that it could attract people to listen to the whole thing.. yeah it's a long lecture..but the advantage here is that, we can here it whenever we feel like it and we can download it into our very 'canggih' mp3 player or the very cute iPod nano *wink wink* and listen to it on the way to class or while on a roadtrip...clever isn't it?...benefit our time better kaann?...hehe...new reason to buy one for me...*grin* . Anyways, coming back to the original topic, here is some of the excerpt from the lecture...

Why are some of our du'a is not accepted by Allah or not responded to? Well, first thing we have to note here is that, Allah respond to every du'a, each one of them, the only thing is, it might not be when and how we want it to be, but we have to faith in it. Reasons for this?

1. Allah is al-maalik, the king, we cannot question the wisdom of Allah, only Allah have the right to question us. Allah judges and decides for everything, no one has the right to demand anything more than what Allah want to give. And know that, Allah gives what is the best for His servants, because Allah love us.

2. Recognition of our status, as the servant of Allah, we have no power, even breathing itself, are we breathing on our own will? No, it is the wisdom of Allah that made us able to breathe and it is His mercy that we have air to breathe with. What more is there to say but only to realize how small and timid we are. That is why, for everything we want, we ask only from Allah and Allah alone can give us what we need when He permits it. Nothing is in our hand to decide. Allahuakbar! If Allah gives something to us, it is because of His wisdom and justice, and if He does not give it to us, that is also His wisdom and justice.

3. A type of test Allah bring upon us, to test our imaan and taqwa towards Him. Allah will test our patience, how do we react when we make du'a for a long time but Allah still haven't granted us with what we want or rather, when we ask for something but instead Allah give us something else that we hate. What would you feel if happens to you? Personally I think I will be sad in the first place, but remember this ayat and hold it close to you and insyaAllah it will help you throughout your ups and downs in life and make us be more tranquil with what Allah have in store for us.

" ... it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know"-Al Baqarah, 216

Be contended with what Allah gives you, verily, Allah's wisdom is perfect, and realized that what we ask for might not be beneficial for us in this world or hereafter, only Allah knows this, the long terms or short terms consequences. Trust in Allah, Allah is more merciful on us than our mother. We do trust our mothers rite? So trust Allah more. He is our creator, He knows what is the best for us because Allah love us. The choice of Allah is better than the choice of the servant.
And remember that, when Allah doesn't give you what you want, He is giving you something better...only that we can't see it just yet because of our weakness..so, trust Allah...

4. To increase our iman. Because only through trial and testing will be able to increase our iman and taqwa. It is just like working out at the gym, if we don't exercise our muscles and put it through a lot of work, it won't be strong and big and have the shape that we want it to be. So, it is the same with our imaan, we have to make it go through tests and trials to increase it The more difficult the trials and fitnah, the more the reward will be. If Allah loves a servant, He test him. This is to raise the rank of the servant. So if we are being tested, say alhamdulillah instead of complaining, but pour your heart to Allah, verily Allah is the best listener to His servant and Allah love it when we turn to Him for everything, because it shows how much we acknowledge the relationship of a servant and his Creator.

5. Make us take a moment away from our actions, contemplate our behavior, every good ones and bad ones, ponder upon our lives, and make us think about our relationship with Allah SWT. Only when our du'a is not responded to, will we start to think over our actions. "Why is this happening to me?..What did I do to deserve this?"I don't think that a person that obtain all that he wished for and get all that he asked for will ever stop and ask such question and or even stop to thank Allah for it. Mostly because we are getting carried away with our fleeting happiness. So, when a du'a is delayed from respond, this is the best time to improve ourself and be a better servant, tazkiyyah, strengthen the feeling of 'pergantungan pada Allah', giving up our sins and doing more good deeds become easier for us to do because we know that all of this can increase the chances for our du'a to be asnwered..insyaAllah...

6. The du'a might have been responded to, only we did not realize it. We are narrow minded; we only look at what we want and discard from our mind all of the other bigger and better blessings around us. It is possible that Allah has given us things that are way better than what we ask for, but we are too blind to see and appreciate them. Nau'zubillah...

A lot have been said and a lot more is left to be discovered, so why not try to listen to the whole lecture? As a conclusion (mcm essay laa plak kan??), try this;- stop and question ourselves for every du'a..Have I perfected this du'a? Am I asking only for the benefits of the world and leaving out the hereafter? Am I fulfilling the ettiquete of a du'a? Am I doing something that could prevent my du'a from being accepted?

Turn to Allah for everything, insyaAllah life will be much better with tranquility and contentment together with redha from Allah....wallahua'lam~ ^_^

A New Start

2007-06-22T01:57:00.000-05:00

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim...

It has been the longest time since I blogged...longest ever..and I don't know whether this one will ever last too or not...but...we shall see how things goes...insyaAllah I will try my best to keep things updated at all time...huhu..what I'm afraid of the most is loosing the touch ..haha...how can you lose something you never had rite?..so..bear with me people..if there is any.

Why am I blogging again? I dunno myself..but I guess..it's because of the things that had happen or is happening in and about my life...very interesting things indeed...things that made me think and make me wanna story it out...and also...because people around me do blog...haha..I admit it....when I read my friends' blogs, they made me wanna write about all the issues, or stories too...and one last reason is..to improve my English..I've noticed that..since I don't have that many English-speaking friends to talk to, my English have become rusty...yuckkk...I don't even like the way I pronounce any English words too...say that I'm exaggerating...but it's the truth people! Even saying a simple 'thank you' or 'how are you' seems to sound like a very strange things to my ears...aiiyoooo...so...I hope these reasons are good enuff for me to start blogging again...insyaAllah...

and oh..oh...here is the link to my old one...the one that I abandoned more than a year ago..sorry! >>Heart to Speak

until my next post...be good and take care! ^_^